Finding the Forward, Part One (HockeyVerse)

Chapter Forty-Seven

Verity

D ean snoozed on my chest as Jonas stroked his hair. Being with both of them had been magical. Though now I yearned to feel that pierced dick inside me.

Would Jonas fuck me sometimes? Or was this only when they were together? I’d be okay with either, but it might be nice to be the center of his attention sometime.

“That was amazing.” I looked at Dean sleeping peacefully.

“You liked that?” Jonas asked, fingers running up my arm, sending little shivers of delight up my spine.

Touch me more, Alpha.

“Oh, I did. I... I like you. I enjoyed being with you, and I’d like some more of that,” I confessed. Never had I craved an alpha the way I did him.

Jonas cupped my face with his hand. “I like you, too, Little Alpha. There are lots of ways I’d like to fuck you. I was worried about you being sober enough to consent.”

Oh? Desire flashed through me. That was so very sexy.

“Sounds good to me.” I looked at Dean again, my heart full. “We wore him out.”

“We did. How are you feeling?” He studied me.

“Better. Thanks for taking care of my drunk ass. That was a little embarrassing. Do you have any more hydrogels or water?” I looked around the room.

“Here you go.” Jonas grabbed one off the nightstand.

“Thanks.” I took it and sucked it down, then used the bathroom.

When I came out, he was wearing a T-shirt and threw me one. It smelled like Dean, and I pulled it on.

He went to the bathroom. When he came back, I flashed him a sultry glance.

“Want to take this into another room?” I wanted that cock. Maybe his tongue on my clit.

“Yeah, I would.” He led us out the door and into the next bedroom.

Dean had a corner room, full of light and art supplies, done in warm browns and reds. Jonas’ room was done in light grays and dark blues, the furniture black and matching. At the center was an alpha-sized bed. By the window was a reading nook. It looked comfortable and inviting. The other corner had some sort of bench.

The door closed behind me.

“Sit. I’m glad you’ve sobered up. While I’m sorry you had a shit day, we need to talk,” he told me, expression serious.

“Okay, did I do something wrong?” I sat down on the navy comforter, sinking into the soft bed, my belly flipping.

“You did. Do you know what?” He stood there, amber eyes boring into me.

I gulped. His voice and expression weren’t mean, but I still tensed.

“Is it because I took Dean on a date?” Here I thought I’d done okay by letting him know and sending my location.

“No. That’s not it. You did that part right. Telling me that you had a bit too much to drink and wanted me to get you was perfect, too.” Jonas moved so that he stood in front of me.

“Of course, Alpha Jonas.” I bit my lower lip to keep it from trembling. “What did I do then?”

“You got drunk with Dean, without one of us there for backup. Do you know how unsafe that was?” His voice was low and steady, which terrified me more than yelling.

My heart fell. Shit. I’d fucked up.

“Despite his size, he still needs the protection of an alpha, and you can’t do that while drunk. His safety is important. What if something happened to him due to you being inebriated?” Again, his voice was calm.

“I’m so sorry. I’d never endanger him.” My voice wavered.

“Even though you don’t have much experience as an alpha, protecting your omega should be common sense,” he snapped.

Flinching, I felt three inches tall. Everything he said was true. I should know better.

“We’re professional athletes, Verity. What would’ve happened if he live-streamed something he shouldn’t? Or if your self-discipline failed, and you actually fucked in public and someone saw or it got caught on video? While you’re allowed to have a shitty day, you have to think about the repercussions of your actions,” he told me, gaze intense.

“I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.” I hadn’t even considered those things. Not only had I put Dean in danger, but we could’ve caused a scandal.

He sighed and sat next to me. “I know I’m asking a lot of you. You’re not bonded to any of us. You’re not officially part of this pack, yet I expect you to behave like it. Also, I’ve never spelled out pack rules besides don’t run and we talk things out like grownups , but the safety and protection of Dean shouldn’t have to be explained.”

“I didn’t mean to fail you.” I kept my head down so he’d know how sorry I was.

“You’re fucking lucky nothing bad happened.”

“I’m so sorry, Jonas.” My throat swelled and tears pricked my eyes.

He tipped up my face with his hand, his amber eyes meeting mine. “Whose idea was the fake sex tape—yours or Dean?”

“I... I don’t remember. We were being silly.” I thought it was funny.

“I have no issue with brats, but don’t do anything you aren’t willing to take responsibility for.” He let go of my face.

While I wasn’t drunk anymore, my brain wasn’t at full capacity, and I had no idea what he was talking about.

“I like you a lot. I’m so proud of the progress you’re making. Dean and Grif belong to you. But do you belong to us? If you do, you have to protect them. Breaking rules has consequences even though this was an accident. However, I know this is going fast, so I’ll give you a choice. You can walk out this door and break everything off now before everyone gets in too deep. Or you can accept your punishment, knowing that you belong with us,” he told me, the room filling with alpha pheromones, willing me to submit.

“I like all of you so much. I want to be part of this.” Sliding off the bed to my knees, I bowed my head, submitting to him as head alpha. “I’ll take the punishment.”

There was no other choice but to do whatever I needed to stay. Walking away would break me.

Also, everything Jonas said was true. If you broke a pack rule, you faced the consequences. If anything, the fact that he felt like he needed to hold me to pack standards meant everything to me.

Because it meant I was something to them.

I wanted, no, needed, to keep them. If I lost them...

“Good. It would tear us up if you left. We care so fucking much for you.” He got up off the bed. “I like seeing you submit to me. But are you submitting to me because you’re afraid, or because you want to?” He stood in front of me, voice growly.

“I want to.” Hopefully, he knew I meant it in multiple ways.

I longed to be part of this pack. I longed for him.

“How many days am I banished? I trust this goes into effect after I get back from seeing my sister? Someone needs to take Mercy to and from the training center. Please don’t punish her, too.” This time, I kept my head bowed and shoulders rounded so he knew how sorry I was.

“Banished?”

“Well, yes. When Mom was head alpha, she’d banish people as punishment. It’s the adult version of being grounded.” I never got banished, only grounded, even in my twenties.

“Um, no. I have another punishment in mind,” he growled.

“Oh. You’re going to beat the shit out of me? I deserve that. The last thing I want is to hurt Dean. I trust you.” Inwardly, I winced. From my understanding, that’s how most packs punished alphas. Endangering the omega was a grievous offense.

“I accept that trust. I’m not going to beat you or banish you, Verity. We’re not that sort of pack. No, bratty little asses get spanked so hard you can’t sit.” He tipped my head up. There wasn’t any anger in his eyes.

“Spanked?” A sinking sensation in my belly told me that this might differ from anything Grif and I got up to.

“Yes. Now, lay down on the bench and take it like a good girl.” While it wasn’t a bark, it was very much an alpha order.

“Yes, Alpha Jonas.” I took off Dean’s shirt and laid down on the bench. It wasn’t quite like anything I’d seen, but I had read enough romance novels to know exactly what this was.

A spanking bench.

“Here.” He helped put my knees on the spots for them.

Lying along the flat part, my head nestled in the headrest. My ass was in the air, legs spread and exposed.

This wasn’t what I was expecting. It was better than being banished or beaten up. My throat remained swollen with apprehension.

Hopefully.

He positioned my hands and readjusted a few things. “Red if it’s too much, yellow to slow down. There are never consequences to using a safe word, even during punishment. Are there any limits besides your leg I need to be aware of?”

“No. Um, if I take my punishment like a good girl, do I get a reward?” My mouth snapped shut. Why did I say that? I shouldn’t push him.

But I also wasn’t familiar with this beyond books.

Jonas paused and stroked my hair. “Yes, you do. Okay, I’m going to spank you now.”

The first crack hit and I flinched, as pain radiated through my ass cheeks. Ow. That was not his hand.

“You don’t put our omega in danger.” C rack. “You protect this pack.” C rack. “You don’t run or break their hearts.” C rack. “Your ass belongs to us.” C rack. “All of us.” C rack.

It did? So, he liked me as much as I liked him?

Every stroke hurt, but not so much that I needed to say red. Oh, I’d feel this tomorrow on my flight if he kept this up.

That was probably the point.

“Jonas, can I come in? What are you doing? Why is the door closed? ” Dean called as he pounded on the door.

Jonas paused his spanks. “We’ll be out later, Dean.”

“Can I be in there with you? I want to join in?” Dean whined.

“No, Love. Not today. This is alpha stuff,” he told him, rubbing my ass gently.

“Please, Babe?” Dean whined again, and it cut through me.

“You don’t get to see this, Love.” Jonas’ voice firmed. “We’ll be out in a little bit. I love you.”

Oh. He’d said something like that back in Glitter City.

“Now, where were we?” Jonas stopped rubbing. “Oh yes. You’ll accept the consequences of your actions.”

Like before, he punctuated his statements with firm whacks.

Ow. Ow. Ow.

“Don’t like that, do you? Now, who does this ass belong to?”

“This pack.” I squeezed my eyes shut as something connected with my ass . Crack.

“You fucking believe it does.” His hand squeezed my sore ass. “One day, I’m going to knot that pretty alpha pussy. If you can take Grif’s fist, you can take my knot. But we’ll save that for another time.”

Fuuuuck. I wanted to take his knot one day. “Maybe I’ll get that piercing so I can take your knot and lock you good.”

“I like that idea. You took your punishment so well, Sweet Girl. I'm so proud of you. That got intense. Are you okay? How does your leg feel? I know I’m fiercer than Grif. I wanted to make this lesson stick because I need you to remember this. Protecting those in the pack who aren’t alphas is literally our job. We have to take it seriously.” He stroked warm oil over the burning skin, soothing it.

Sweet Girl? Oh, I liked that.

“It was intense, but I’m okay,” I told him. The oil felt good.

“That ass is going to hurt tomorrow. When you’re on the airplane. When you’re sitting on the bench at the game. When you’re having dinner with your sisters. Your aching ass will make you remember why . You need to get drunk with him? Then come here where you’re safe. Or bring me or AJ. In this pack we always protect them at all costs. Understood?” He kept gently rubbing the oil into my ass.

“Yes, Alpha Jonas.” My eyes closed as I was suddenly tired. I’d definitely remember this lesson.

“That’s my girl.” Jonas’ expert hands massaged me, working the knots out of my shoulder and back, much like they had in Glitter City.

“Mmmm, is this my reward?” My pussy wanted dick, but this was nice.

“No, this is me taking care of you. This part is important.” His fingers dug into my flesh, releasing the tension. “I appreciate your trust. Like I said before, I’m expecting a lot from you. However, they're my life, my family.” He pressed his hands into my back and leaned in.

“That feels good. Why didn’t you let Dean in when he asked to join us?”

“Me punishing you is alpha business. Not every part of you is for everyone to see. They don’t need to see that,” he replied, his hands moving to the other side of my back.

Wow, that was profound.

“Thank you. I’m glad for that.” Knowing they didn’t have to see me atone for my fuckups made me feel a lot better.

“Grif and Dean love you just the way you are. To them, you're alpha enough. I want to make a safe place for you, where you can learn and grow as an alpha, since you never have had the chance to. A place where you know you won’t be judged,” he told me. “I push you, but it’s because I know it’s in there. Wanting you to be the best alpha you can be doesn’t mean you’re not enough. Who doesn’t want to be their best self?”

Again, very profound–and telling. I loved how he wanted me to be a good alpha as much as I did.

Him saying I was alpha enough also settled something in my soul.

He continued, “I can’t wait to find out what parts of you are only for me. While I love them, sometimes I’ll want you all to myself.”

“Sometimes I might want you to myself, too,” I admitted. He was right. As alphas, if an omega was in the mix, they automatically got our focus because of biology.

“Kitten?” Grif’s called from the other side of the door with a soft rap. “Are you okay in there?”

Grif. I tensed.

“Easy, Little Alpha. He’s simply checking in,” Jonas whispered.

“I’m okay, Tiger,” I replied, groaning again as Jonas’ magic hands hit another good spot. “I... I’ll be out soon.”

“If you’re okay, take your time,” Grif told me.

“She’s okay, Grif. Promise,” Jonas added, continuing to massage my back.

“Good. I’m going to make Dean some food. When you’re ready, I’ll make some for you.”

“I’d like that, thank you.” My mind reeled. What just happened?

“Hey, it’s okay,” Jonas soothed. “This is what life is like in our pack, someone making you food while you finish fucking. We’re going to take our time . Dean will survive with only his husband’s attention for a bit.”

We fell into a soothing silence as he rubbed my legs and arms.

Finally, his hands glided up and down my back. “How’s that?”

“That was a very good massage,” I sighed, though my ass stung.

His hands rubbed my ass again, but what he applied felt different, cool and tingly. “This is going to numb the pain for a bit. It will wear off. You're not to put anything like this on it. Understood?”

“Yes, Alpha Jonas.” Too bad. I had stuff like this at home for sore muscles.

“Good girl.” He scooped me up and brought me into his bed, pulling the covers over us, and tucking me into him so I was on my side, not my ass. Jonas started to purr, the warmth and reassurance flooding me.

Mmmm, I enjoyed snuggling him quite a bit.

“Are you okay, Sweetheart?” he asked, stroking my hair. “I’m sorry if that was a lot.”

Sweetheart . I liked that one, too.

“I’m okay. Protecting them is important, and I’m sorry I fucked up.” Disappointing him killed me inside.

“I know. Don’t be afraid to hold me accountable. That includes this. If I crossed a line, you need to let me know.” He kissed my temple.

“Noted. I understand why you did.” I nuzzled him. Eventually, I’d need to go home and get ready for the Maimer’s holiday party.

“I’m glad. I like you in my bed and I’m absolutely going to keep them out sometimes.” His pierced tongue flicked out. “Be the sole focus of your attention.”

“Mmmm, take me.” My pussy really could use some attention.

“Oh, I will.” His eyes gleamed as he tipped his forehead to mine. “Your reward for taking your punishment so well is my cock. It’s why I numbed your ass. I want you to enjoy being fucked by me.”

“Jonas.” I gasped as his hand brushed my pussy lips, and three fingers slid inside. Oh, yes, give me some pierced alpha cock.

“So wet.” He pumped them in and out of me. “Again, safe words, Verity. If something’s too much, if you don’t like or want something, tell me. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.”

“Oh, I want you. Now.” I moaned as his fingers curled inside me. “I don’t think my pussy is ready for your knot, but can I lock you?”

Jonas kissed me. “I’d love for my sweet girl to lock me after I pound her needy cunt with my pierced alpha cock.”

That dirty talk. Take me, Alpha.

He pushed me to my back and spread my legs. “I need a taste.”

Jonas buried his face in my pussy. That pierced tongue glided across my clit.

My body bucked and I hissed. “Jonas.”

That’s the stuff, right there.

He tormented me with his clever mouth. That pierced tongue explored me. Pleasure rose inside me as his fingers pumped inside me.

Just a little more...

As if he knew how close I was, the pace of his mouth and fingers slowed.

“Jonas,” I gasped, needing more.

“What, are you in a rush?” he teased, lapping me languidly.

I whimpered, pushing my pussy into his face. “Please, Jonas.”

“Come for me, Sweet Girl,” he mumbled into my pussy. His fingers pumped in and out of me roughly as he flicked my clit with his tongue.

“Jonas,” I moaned as I came hard all over his face and hand.

“That’s my girl.” Wiping off his face with a wipe from his nightstand, he gave me a hungry look. “You taste delicious.”

“I love your tongue,” I groaned.

Getting a condom, he rolled it down his cock. “Not on birth control. But if this is going to be regular, I should. I know my sweet girl will need to be dicked down sometimes in the way only I can.”

“Oh, yes, Jonas,” I sighed, back arching in anticipation of being speared by his cock. It was hard again, the knot fully inflated, but he didn’t have to knot me for me to enjoy it.

Kneeling on the bed, he threw my legs over his shoulders. “Does that feel okay?”

I nodded, appreciating how he checked in with me.

“Good.” Jonas plunged into my pussy in one firm stroke.

“That feels good. I love your pierced cock. I’ve been wanting to feel it since Glitter City,” I gasped, pleasure flooding me.

“While I love watching you with them, it’s nice to finally be inside you.” His eyes stayed on mine, balls slapping my ass as his hands explored my naked body.

My body moved to meet his hard and deep thrusts.

“There. Right there,” I gasped as his piercing hit just the right spot. I writhed as I came all over his cock.

“Oh, you squeeze me so good,” he praised, his pace unrelenting. “I’m going to come, and I want you to lock me.”

He pulled out and thrust hard into me, making my pussy muscles flutter. I clamped down hard on his cock, locking him inside me.

“Verity,” he cried out. “Oh, fucking shit, I like that.” Jonas flopped down on me. “Mmmm. You lock me good.”

“That felt good.” My arms wrapped around him. “You feel so good.”

“I’m glad. I’ll take my time with you another day.” Jonas kissed me, slow and sweet, leaving me breathless.

He would? Yes, please.

I was falling for him, too. Yes, I’d have to make sure that I didn’t disappoint him again. As much as having my ass spanked hurt, that hurt more.