First Street Heat (Beastverse #1)

8. Lilah

8

Lilah

B efore snuggling into bed, I grab the half gallon of Rocky Road ice cream from the freezer, a spoon, and my laptop. I tell myself I need to shower or change into something that doesn't smell like Scott and Fenrir. I can't force myself into the shower or remove my clothes, so I'm still getting whiffs of his smell whenever I lean too close to my arm or shift around.

I allow myself to have his smell just for tonight. Tomorrow, I'll forget that I ever saw the alpha, and I'll work on getting him out of my mind. Plenty of people have had one-sided scent matches. I just need to let the infatuation fade, and it'll be like nothing ever happened. I mean, I'll still have the pain of being rejected during my heat, which will haunt my dreams for the rest of my life. But other than that, I'll be fine.

The end credits of the second romcom I've watched today start rolling, and I decide I need to clean up all of my snacks from the bed before I go to sleep.

I groan as I grab the empty ice cream container, the empty wine bottle, and the unused wine glass from my nightstand. The world spins around me when I stand from the bed, and I realize I maybe should've had some actual food instead of just ice cream. Oh well, I'll regret it in the morning when I have to deal with the hangover.

Unknown: I miss you, little omega

I should probably drink some water, but the text is getting to me. I grab a beer from the fridge as my final drink of the night to help me keep up my nerves. I pop the cap off before allowing myself to hope that the person texting me is who I want it to be.

Nope, I need at least two gulps of my drink before I'm ready to look at my phone again. Not even a full minute passes before my phone is buzzing again. I quickly add Scott and Fenrir's names to the number and then read the multitude of texts he's sent in the last thirty seconds.

Scott/Fenrir: Be a good omega and message me back

Scott/Fenrir: I want to say naughty things to you, but this won't be a one-sided conversation

Lilah: Who is this?

Scott/Fenrir: Don't play games with me

Lilah: So you'll say naughty things to me, but we're not playing any games?

Scott/Fenrir: I'll play naughty games with you, but they involve pictures, and I don't know if you're brave enough just yet

Lilah: So what do you want then?

Lilah: I'm assuming this is Fenrir?

Scott/Fenrir: Scott's passed out right now. We drank too much

Lilah: I'm working on the same thing.

I send a quick shot of the beer bottle in my hand as I sit in bed. I'm not in the picture, just my hand, the bottle, and my room. I don't think about where it could lead, or I guess I do. Fenrir mentioned naughty pictures, and now all I want is to see what kind of game he wants to play that involves pictures.

I also want to see how much I can get Fenrir to show. We're both intoxicated. It seems like the perfect time to make stupid decisions that we can blame on the alcohol tomorrow.

Scott/Fenrir: Don't be a tease

Scott/Fenrir: I want to see more

Lilah: What do I get if I show you more?

Scott/Fenrir: Absolutely anything you want

Lilah: If I want you?

Scott/Fenrir: Little omega, you already have us

Scott/Fenrir: Start by sending your tits

I take another swig of my beer and debate whether or not I'm going to do what he's asking. I'll be honest. I really want to make him happy, too. Especially after he says, I already have both of them.

I set the bottle down and tear my t-shirt off before I can really think through what I'm doing. I cover my nipples with my arm, push my cleavage up, and snap a quick picture. The lower half of my face is visible, with a big smile on my lips. The bottom rim of my glasses are just barely visible.

I want to see how upset Fenrir gets when he sees I haven't bared myself to him in the way he wants. Beasts are supposed to want complete submission. When they aren't given it, they take it. I want Fenrir to take it from me.

Three little dots pop up on the screen, and I watch them move for a moment, and then they disappear. My heart sinks, realizing that he might already be bored with me or maybe I did upset him by not doing what he asked.

My worry lasts only a few seconds before an incoming video call buzzes on my phone. I click accept, very aware that I still haven't put my shirt on.

"Hello?" I say softly. The man on the other side of the screen is shrouded in darkness, so I can only make out the outlines of his features and see the glowing golden eyes of his beast.

" Tilt the phone down, little omega, " Fenrir's voice is dark and husky as he commands me.

I see myself in the corner of my screen and know exactly what he wants to see. My face flushes as I realize I am a weak little omega when it comes to following instructions from the alpha I'm scent matched to. I hold the phone further from my body and tilt it down. I'm so entranced in his eyes that I don't care how much of myself I'm showing him.

His eyes flare in delight. " Such a beautiful woman. "

My face flushes. "What do you want, Fenrir?"

" Right now, I want to move somewhere where you can see me better. " He moves the phone in his hand, his face leaving the screen momentarily before moving somewhere with a bit more light. When his face returns, I can make out more of his features and feel myself practically purring for him. He's so handsome I can't believe he's talking to me right now. " That's better, yeah? "

"Mhm." I nod eagerly, wanting to see even more of him. He smiles at my reaction, and I feel my core clenching, begging for me to touch myself while I stare at his face. "Take off your shirt."

" You want us to match? " He winks before setting the phone in his lap and rustling around with his shirt.

My blush deepens and travels down my chest at the reminder of how much of myself I'm showing him. I don't cover myself when I finally look at myself in the small video of me. Instead, I shift around until I feel like I look good and wait for Fenrir to pull the phone back up to his face. He's moving something else and finally sits back down and holds the phone to his face.

" I went ahead and got rid of my pants too. Feel free to do the same. "

"Let me see." I grab my beer and take another sip before setting it down.

" So fucking sexy, " Fenrir murmurs as I pull the bottle from my lips. " Take off your pants, and I'll show you everything. "

"I don't know." I try to sound shy, but my free hand is slowly traveling down my body, grabbing my breasts and pinching my nipples.

Fenrir's eyes track my hand as I keep touching myself. As I lower it down my abdomen, I let my phone tilt downward, too, as my hand disappears underneath my sweats.

"You've already seen me spread and didn't seem too interested." My breath catches on the last word as I start circling my clit.

Fenrir's eyes harden, his lips pull back in a snarl, and he growls loudly before snapping his attention to something off the screen. " Don't get me upset tonight, little omega. I have to stay in my brother's backyard, and I'm not trying to end our fun because we woke him or his omega up. "

I laugh and let my head fall for a moment. "Why are you stuck outside?"

" I met a horny little omega that I really like the smell of. " Fenrir's eyes roar to life. His confession has a glimmer of hope sprouting to life in my heart. " Scott told them I can't be trusted at home, so they got me drunk and are making me stay out in the hammock tonight. "

"Okay, I'll play nice, but I want to see your cock." I don't hide that I'm still playing with myself, and I definitely don't hide the little gasps and moans as the pleasure builds inside me. "Come on, Fenrir. I've been told beasts are horny fucks. Show me your cock."

" Needy little omega. " Fenrir chides. " You should also know we don't like being told what to do. Especially from omegas who only pretend to have power after feeling humiliated. "

My face falls when he reminds me of him rejecting me and the subsequent humiliation that followed. My hand is still in my sweats, but when I go to pull it out, Fenrir's back to growling.

" Keep touching yourself, Lilah. " Fenrir doesn't silence his growl until my hand returns between my legs. " Good girl. I want to watch you fall apart while I remind you of how desperate you were for me ." A whimper escapes my lips, and I feel fresh embarrassment flush my cheeks. Fenrir's eyes flare at the sound. " I haven't even started, and you're already blushing so much. I won't be cruel to you tonight, little omega. Scott would murder me if he knew I was mean to you when he isn't there to soothe the pain when I finish. "

"You want to hurt me?" My breathing is hard as I keep circling my clit, bringing myself closer to the edge of orgasm.

" I do. " Fenrir looks to the side again, listening for something before returning his attention to me. " You already knew that, though. I'll make it good for you when I do. Like I said, I'm not hurting you tonight. "

"What are you going to do then?"

" Reminding you of how badly you want me. Don't come until I let you. When you need to come, ask me, and I'll tell you if you're allowed to yet. "

I whine at the idea of having to edge myself. I want to know what he has in store for me over video call.

No, I really want to know what he would do if we were together. Would he be worried about not hurting me if we were in person? Probably not. He said he won't be cruel tonight because Scott's not here, which means Fenrir isn't sweet and counts on Scott to make up for his bad behavior.

" Do you understand, Lilah? " Fernir's voice sounds rough and desperate, almost as desperate as I feel.

I nod quickly, biting my lip as another gasp tries to escape. "Yes, I understand."

" Good girl. " Fenrir smiles as the words leave his mouth. It's a knowing smile because he knows how much I react to him since I scent matched him.

"Please."

" No, " Fenrir growls, already knowing my question before I ask. My fingers stop moving in my sweats, and I'm panting as I let the orgasm fade before continuing my movements again. " Already so desperate to follow my instructions. Do you want my approval, little omega? "

"Yes," I whimper. "I need it. You know that."

" I do. " Fenrir smiles again. " Poor little omega scent matched an alpha and never got his knot. "

I let out a shuttering gasp and my bottom lip quivers. I shouldn't be finding all of this so hot, not when he's an asshole that I should hate for rejecting me and then teasing me. I can't get myself to care when I respond to him like he is everything I've ever wanted.

"Please, Fenrir." My impending orgasm taunts me as I keep stroking my clit, waiting for Fenrir's response.

"Please, let me come," I beg some more, but Fenrir doesn't respond. He just stares at me, his head cocking to the side like he's trying to see how long I'll go before stopping myself from falling over the edge. I let out a soft cry as I pull my fingers out of my sweats.

" Touch yourself, " Fenrir snaps before I can even feel a little bit of relief from the impending orgasm. " Unless you're taking off your pants, I want your hand on your clit and in your cunt until I'm done with you. "

My lips part, and a ripple of pleasure erupts under my skin. I bite down on my bottom lip to silence my moan. Goosebumps line my skin, and I feel myself in a battle of wills between doing what Fenrir wants me to do and coming just from the dominance in his voice.

He growls again, and I'm a lost cause as my orgasm tears into me, causing me to gasp and cry out. His name escapes my lips in an apology that I know he won't need or care about.

" Really? " Fenrir sounds more amused than anything. " I thought you would last longer than that. You weren't even touching yourself. "

I grind myself against my mattress as I finish coming, trying to ride the high of orgasm for as long as possible.

"I'm sorry," I mumble when I'm finally able to compose myself. "I'm really responsive to you. This isn't the first time—" My eyes widen in horror as I try to take back what I've let slip.

" Not the first time you've what? " Fenrir sits up in his chair. The phone held further out, showing more of his body.

My core clenches, and I perfume again as my eyes travel over his sculpted body. Alphas are always muscular. Even if they don't work out, they're strong and have the muscles to back it up. It makes them practical and easy on the eyes.

"I liked the video," I mumble as I take another gulp of wine.

" Take off your pants, " Fenrir says, furrowing his brows. I've already made plenty of mistakes tonight. What's another? I set my phone on the comforter and wiggle out of my sweats. " Which video did you like? "

"Is there more than one?" I ask as I walk across the room to put the clothes in an airtight bag. Yes, it's pathetic, but I don't know when I'll see him again, and I want to lock in his scent on my clothes from the clinic. "The video from the clinic with you and Scott and Joy."

Fenrir's smile returns to his lips when he realizes which video I'm talking about. I grab one of my pillows and position my phone against it so I'm fully visible on my bed without having to hold it.

I want to be lying on my stomach and licking my phone screen as Fenrir gives me an up close and personal tour of every ridge of his muscled body, but I doubt that'll be happening tonight.

" You came from that video? " he asks when I sit on the bed.

I sit crisscrossed and keep my hands covering my sex, knowing it's what he wants to see. No, what he probably really wants is to see me present for him. He stares at me, his smile dropping and his lips pulling back when I stay seated, covering myself.

"I came from that video without touching myself," I admit.

His rigid demeanor softens for a moment, and his eyes move up to my face, his head tilting to the side again like he's unsure what to make of what I'm saying.

" Which part? " he asks, his eyes dropping to where I'm covered, but he hasn't said anything about it yet. I have him too focused on his ability to make me come without even trying.

"When you answered how many women cry." My words are breathy as I say them. I'm slightly scared of how he'll take that, slightly turned on that his eyes keep flashing like he's proud of me, and slightly wanting him to be in my room right now so I can fuck him.

Fenrir taps the phone screen, and then the camera angle changes. My view is now the patio pavement he's apparently sleeping on tonight.

" You've been a good little omega, " he says from the other side.

He kicks his feet up onto a patio table and then lowers the phone's camera until I'm staring at the most glorious cock I've ever seen in my life. I scramble on the bed, trying to get the phone closer to my face, not even caring when my tongue swipes across the screen for a moment. I'm too lost in my arousal to care.

" Needy little omega, " Fenrir laughs as he starts to stroke himself much too slowly. " Want a taste of me? "

"Hate that you're so far away," I moan.

I've given up all pretenses of being sexy now. I'm on my belly, feet kicked up in the air, just enjoying watching this alpha masturbate and talk to me while he does it.

" If I was there, what would my little omega do to me? " Fenrir growls.

I'm starting to realize he's even more growly than other alphas I've been around. I thought he'd just be more of an ass, which he is, but he also growls about everything. Unfortunately for me, the growl has a direct line to my clit and has me on the verge of orgasm every time he does it.

"I'd make you finally give me that knot." I pant as he starts stroking himself faster. "I think I deserve a knot after all I've been through."

" You do. " Fenrir's voice is rough as he keeps stroking himself, his pleasure building and thickening the knot at the base of his cock. " We have not been kind to you these past days, but in our defense, we didn't know you scented us. "

I furrow my brows, his words confusing me because scent matching isn't always reciprocated, and he wasn't exactly telling me he was into me that way, either. "Did you scent me?"

Fenrir snarls and growls so loud there's no way he's not waking up whatever family he's staying with. " You think we weren't affected by you, little omega? We found our mate, and Scott thought he had to be chivalrous instead of fucking you hard and biting your neck like you needed. "

"Your mate?" My voice doesn't even sound like my own.

No, it feels like I'm having a whole out-of-body experience because of this alpha. This sexy as hell beast having alpha is calling me his mate while he touches himself, and I'm stuck in my bed, too horny and too drunk to even function right.

" My. Mate. " Fenrir snaps the words like he needs me to understand I am his. His fist works his cock over and over until he's a growling mess of a man. " Present your cunt to me, mate. Present that perfect, fucking pussy to me, now. "

I don't hesitate in doing what he asks. I put the phone back against my pillow and bend myself in half. I check to make sure I'm in view of the camera and then use my hands to spread myself for him. I move my head so I can see my phone in my peripheral, but enough to see his cock still being stimulated.

" Who are you spreading that pussy for? " Fenrir demands from the phone.

I clench around nothing and slick slip from my opening and down my thighs.

"You, Fenrir," I say, my chest heaving as I try to keep myself from coming so exposed to him.

His teeth snap so loud I hear it over the sound of my racing heart, and then he's growling again. " Who are you spreading your pussy for? "

I shake my head, not understanding why what I said isn't good enough. I suck my bottom lip into my mouth and chew on it before the realization hits me. I'm clenching and moaning again as I dangle on the edge of orgasm.

" Do not come until you tell me who you are presenting for. " Fenrir's voice is deadly, knowing he's gotten me too worked up, too needy for him.

"My mate." I barely get the words out before pleasure slams into me. Slick runs down my legs, and my core pulses, begging to have a knot to squeeze. "I'm presenting for my mate. You, my mate, Fenrir."

Fenrir roars his approval just in time for me to open my eyes and see his cock twitch as he coats his hand in his release. I wish so badly that it was me he was releasing on. I'll have to fantasize about it a bit longer.

He grabs his shirt off the pavement and starts cleaning himself off before flipping the camera around so I can see his face again. His face is softer and less demanding, but his eyes still shine golden.

" I will have you soon, little omega, " he says the words with a smile that puts every smile I've ever seen to shame. He's so gorgeous, and he's excited to call me his mate. There's no way I got this lucky. " I'd prefer if you came to me, seeing as I can be arrested by going to you. "

"I have school," I say.

It's honest. I'm only a couple of weeks away from graduating, and I already have a job lined up at an omega doctor's office. I'm not throwing all of that away for an alpha, even if that alpha is everything I have ever wanted ever in my life without even knowing it. "I'll be busy for a little while since I need to get caught up on work I missed since I was incapacitated."

Fenrir's eyes narrow on me. The possessive part of him is strong when he's a beast. I'm prepared to argue with him about my schooling being more important than him getting his dick wet, but he surprises me.

" You'll text us when you're free. " It's not a question but an order, but it's way better than the response I thought I'd get.

"I can do that." I nod, wanting him to smile again instead of looking irritated.

Fenrir looks up from his phone, another wicked smile contorting his face and making it even more beautiful. " I didn't mean to wake you. " He tilts the phone so I'm looking more at his chest than his face as he continues talking.

"Who are you talking to, Fen?" an exasperated sounding male asks. He sounds like he's had to deal with the beast's bullshit before. It's probably the brother he was talking about earlier.

" The little omega forgives me much more easily than she'll forgive Scott. "

There's a loud sigh, and then someone walks closer to where Fenrir is. "Is she still on the phone?"

" Yes, but you don't get to see her how she is now, " Fenrir snaps. The humor in his voice is gone, and his growl pours from him loudly. " Mine. You do not look at what's mine. "

"Calm down," his brother snaps at him, and I hear the sound of someone smacking the back of someone else's head. "Janie would kill me first of all, and second of all, you and Scott would take turns killing me."

" We would not, " Fenrir growls again. " I would kill you before he had a chance to partake. "

There's silence for a long moment, and I wonder if I should hang up and let them finish whatever they're talking about. Fenrir tilts the phone upward for a moment, his eyes lighting up when he sees I'm still there, and then he tilts it back down to his chest. Yeah, I'll stay on the phone forever if he'll give me those sweet smiles.

"Did Scott get a chance to partake in whatever you were doing out here?" his brother asks the question quietly enough that he's trying to keep it hidden from me.

I didn't even think to ask Fenrir if Scott was joining us because he said Scott was passed out. Not that I'm opposed to Scott being there for all of it, too. I'd prefer it if he was.

" He woke up when she came the first time, " Fenrir says loud enough that he knows that his brother wanted to be quiet about it and doesn't care in the slightest.

"And he was fine with all of this?"

" Are you asking if he was fine watching our little omega spread herself for us and call me her mate? Yeah, he loved it. " Fenrir laughs when he says it, and a blush creeps across my cheeks. " Now, go away. I want to speak with her some more before Scott takes over and apologizes for my behavior as though he wasn't drooling over her with me. "

"Get some sleep, Fen," his brother chuckles when he says it, but he doesn't seem upset with Scott or Fenrir. Everything's okay. Fenrir waits until the backdoor clicks closed before returning the phone to his face.

" Scott wants to tell you good night, " Fenrir says quickly like he thinks I'll hang up on him. " Before he does, I have a request for my little omega, and she can say no, but it would make her mate immensely happy if she said yes. "

"Do I get to hear what I'm agreeing to beforehand?" I ask, an eyebrow quirking up. I already know I'm about to agree to whatever he asks, whether I know about it beforehand or not. I can pretend to be a little defiant, though.

Fenrir tries to hide his smile, but the flare of his eyes tells me he finds all of it humorous, too. " Since we cannot be with you to protect you and keep you safe, it would mean a lot to me if you would allow me to watch you sleep. "

My brows pull together, not really grasping that even though he's a possessive and territorial beast, he still cares for me like a true mate would. I feel the burning in my throat, and the tears prick my eyes before I nod. I agree to his kind gesture, even if it seems a little creepy, knowing he's going to watch me sleep through the call.

"Yeah, I can do that."

" Thank you, mate, " he says the last word in a sultry tone that has me blushing again.

He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. When they open again, they're back to being Scott's dark brown. "Lilah." My name is like a prayer on his lips, and for a long moment, I don't even respond to him. I just savor how beautiful my name on his lips sounds.

"Scott," I return his name and wait to see what he wants. I already know we're not ending the call since he wants to watch me sleep, but I don't know what he wants before then.

"I'm sorry. I watched what you and Fenrir were doing, and I shouldn't have, but I mean, you're beautiful. He should've told you when I first woke up, and I'm sorry if you feel violated in any way." His lip pulls back in a snarl before his eyes flash to Fenrir's bright gold. " Enough of that. We will see you in the morning, yes, little omega? "

"Mhm," I hum in agreement.

I grab my charger off the ground and plug in my phone before positioning it on my nightstand so it can face me sleeping without me having to hold it up. I give it one last look and see Fenrir holding the phone close to his face as he lounges in his chair. I blush, embarrassed that I'm just going to let him watch me sleep, but something about it, the non-creepy part, feels nice.

" Sleep, Lilah, " Fenrir's growl is softer than all of his others from tonight. " I'll be up for a while watching you. I'm too entranced by my mate's beauty. "

I blush again before pulling my blankets tight around me. "Good night, Fenrir," I pause for a moment, glancing up at the glowing golden eyes still open on my phone screen. "Tell Scott goodnight, too."