MC Sinners Boxed Set #1-7

JACKSON

I t burns. It fucking burns. Betrayal, it hurts more than anything I’ve ever felt. It’s reliving Addison’s mother all over again. Except this time, I really had given my heart over. I love Serenity, heart and motherfuckin’ soul, and she betrayed me. I can’t think around it, I can’t breathe without it hurting. Everything I started to believe in, is now fucking gone.

“Daddy,” Addison whispers beside me.

I don’t look at her, but I feel her hand sneak into mine, and she grips it.

“It’s not her fault.”

I want to scream at her, to shake her, to tell her it is Serenity’s fault. She made the fucking choice. She lied. She did this. Not me. And now she’s pregnant, fuck, she’s pregnant and it fucking hurts. It hurts because I am too soft, I don’t want to leave a child alone, and I sure as shit don’t wanna leave it in Hogan’s world. I’d never live with myself. But right now, I can’t even look at her. The anger inside me is so huge, I want to kill someone.

And she said she loves me.

She fucking loves me.

Love is bullshit. It’s a bullshit fucking lie that people make you believe will fix everything.

It fixes nothing.

“Daddy, she’s pregnant...she needs care.”

“Then you can fuckin’ care for her, if you feel the need to baby her so much,” I bark.

A few of the guys look over at me, but most of them keep their heads down. Addison pulls her hand from mine, and when I glance over at her, she’s giving me a look of pure hurt.

“That baby is a part of me, just like it’s a part of you. I don’t care how much you hate Serenity...that is your child. Would you have thrown me out so easily? Or is this what really happened with me?”

I turn on her, gripping her shoulders. “Watch what you fuckin’ accuse me of, Addison. I stood by your fuckin’ mother while she was pregnant.”

“But you won’t stand by Serenity.”

“She fucking lied to me.”

“So? So what? She fucked up. She’s paying for it. She was protecting someone she loved, which is more than you can say for yourself right now. Maybe she’s right; maybe you are just as cold hearted as her father.”

She shuffles through the crowd until she finds Muff, and she sits down beside him. I growl, and clench my fists.

Fuck this.

Just fuck it.