Thor (Sinful Warriors MC #4)

Chapter 11

Chapter Eleven

MADISON

T he past several days have been incredible. Jonah and I have spent all of his free moments together. He manages the pawn shop the club owns so he’s gone for most of the day. I look forward to five o’clock every day. I’ve fallen fast and quick.

I spend my days video chatting with my parents and brothers. This is the happiest I’ve been in years. There’s something about this place that lifts my spirits. For the first time in a long time, I feel safe, and I have friends. The ladies have been amazing to me. I feel kind of left out when they leave for work but my first day at the hospital is in just a few days.

Jonah laid down a list of rules for me when I’m at the hospital. I hated that conversation. I’m not allowed to leave the building without Doc. If I suspect at any time that Thomas’s goons are around, I have to let Jonah know immediately. My last and final rule is to never go home for the day without Jonah and a few of the brothers with me.

I know he blames himself for everything that has happened even though I don’t. For years I didn’t want to accept what Thomas told me. The Jonah I knew and loved would have protected me till his last breath and that’s why I hold no fault on him. Every time I try and speak my piece, he changes the subject or just shuts me down completely. I don’t know what to do to relieve his guilt. I’m thinking about bringing it up to the ladies. I need some advice on how to approach this with him.

Despite the guilt he’s been feeling, we’ve still managed to go out a few times. He took me to a beautiful restaurant that I later found out the club owned. Cara, Sara, and Bianca pretty much run the place. That had to be the best Italian food I’ve had in my life. Jonah ordered five different things and we just sampled a bit of everything. I knew it had to cost him a pretty penny, but he refused to let me see the bill.

We’ve had a few make-out sessions like we did on the stairs. Every time things get really heated, to where I just want to feel his hands on my skin, he pumps the brakes. It’s so frustrating and a bit hurtful. I don’t want him looking at me like I’m some broken woman. I’ve had years to deal with what happened.

Does it still affect me? Yes.

I would be lying if I said otherwise, but it doesn’t mean that I’m incapable of being intimate ever again. I don’t know what I’m going to do to make him realize that I want to go further. I know he thinks he needs to go slow with me, but turtles move faster than this.

I miss him. I miss how we used to be. I want to see that same hunger in his eyes he used to have before everything happened. My brand-new phone beeps from beside me, breaking my thoughts. That’s another thing Jonah gave me. I offered to pay him back but he refused. I felt like a child getting scolded after he was done ranting about how he would never, under any circumstance, take my money.

Cara and Sara added some kind of virus protection that prevents my phone from being hacked. They also added an app that will do daily sweeps of my phone to make sure nothing funny is going on. When my phone beeps again, I pick up and open the message from Cara.

Cara: Welcome to the SSGC. This is our safe place to speak freely. Whatever is said in this chat will not be judged or repeated. There’s only a few of us women on this compound and we need to stick together.

Bianca: SSGC?

Cara: Sinful Sisters Group Chat. I thought that was kind of obvious. ??

Bianca: No. It wasn’t.

Sara: I like it. But seriously, did you have to add Mom? We can’t speak freely here!

Crystal: What is that supposed to mean? I know I’m a grandmother, but I am no prude. Isn’t that right, Veronica?

Veronica: Damn straight. I was young once so believe me, there isn’t anything you young birds can say that I haven’t heard.

Bianca: Oh yea? So, if I want to text the ladies about all the kinky things I got up to last night, you two would be okay with that? ??

A bubble of laughter rips for me and I’m smiling down at the phone awaiting what’s next. One thing I have learned is that Bianca, Sara, and Cara have zero filters. They say whatever is on their mind and it’s refreshing, sometimes hilarious.

Veronica: Sure. But then I can tell you how Smoke handcuffed me to the bed last night.

Bianca: Eww! That’s seriously gross, Mom. Smoke might want to be careful. He isn’t a spring chicken anymore. He might throw his back out.

Cara: ??

Sophia: Shots fired!

Sara: Stop! I’m seriously going to pee myself from laughing.

Veronica: Oh, please, don’t fool yourself. My man has stamina for days. Age ain’t nothing but a number.

Cara: Just remember that when Smoke knocks you up.

Veronica: Take that back right now! I’m in my 40s!

Sara: I mean, even women in their 50s conceive Veronica.

Crystal: Shut it you two. Veronica and I are past the having a baby phase.

Me: Actually, biologically speaking, you’re not. It’s not common but it can happen. Last year, I had fifty-one-year-old woman who came into the emergency room thinking she was starting menopause but really, she was ten weeks pregnant.

Veronica: ??

Crystal: That sounds terrible.

Bianca: Come on, Mom. I always wanted a younger sibling. I think you and Smoke should keep up your naughty activities. I might luck up and have a little sister next year.

Sara: LOL!

Sophia: They’re traumatized.

Cara: Probably in the corner praying. LMAO.

I’m laughing so hard I’m clutching my stomach, trying to catch my breath. The phone goes off a few more times before I calm down enough to look.

Cara: Ok. Down to business, ladies. We all know Madison is new to the group and she never had true friends before. So, tonight we will be taking her out on her first ever girls’ night!

Sophia: OMG. Sounds like fun. I’m getting ready to board the plane, so I’ll see you all in a few hours. I’m so excited to finally meet you, Madison!

Me: Me too. Have a safe flight!

I’ve only heard of Sophia through the ladies. I know she’s Cara and Sara’s younger sibling and she attends Yale. She flies in twice a month to visit. According to the ladies, that’s more to see her boyfriend and Ol’ Man Armor. I laughed at how offended Cara looked when she told me.

Bianca: Cara, there is no way Thor is letting Madison leave the compound without him.

Me: I’m with Bianca on this one. He’s like a protective guard dog. The other night on our date, he actually checked the bathroom before letting me enter.

Cara: Its already taken care of.

Sara: You didn’t tie him up somewhere, did you???

Cara: NO! I just did a little negotiating. Now, I need to finish up my day. We will be heading out at eight.

Sara: Sounds like a plan.

Bianca: I’m down.

Me: Can’t wait!

Setting my phone down, I smile wide while bouncing on my bed with excitement. I don’t know what Cara did, but I owe her. I need a night of fun. Not that I have much experience with it. Something tells me that this will be a night to remember. I check the time to see it’s a little after noon, so I grab my laptop and talk to my parents for a few hours. As the rest of the day goes by, I grow more and more anxious. When a knock sounds on my door, I walk over and open it.

Jonah is standing there looking a bit conflicted. Concern stirs inside me. “What’s wrong?” I ask. I pull him inside my room, and he takes a seat on the bed.

“I don’t want you to go.” He huffs. Circling his arms around my hips, he brings my body against his and rests his head on my stomach. I run my fingers through his silky hair, and I swear he purrs like a kitten. This is the Jonah I know. He’s super affectionate and not afraid to show his emotions.

“If you truly don’t want me to go, then I won’t.”

He curses under his breath before looking up at me. His face is full of regret. “I’m being selfish, Maddy. If this is what you want, I’m just going to have to deal with it. I want you all to myself. Ten years have gone by, and I don’t want to spend any more time apart.”

“It’s only for a few hours.” I giggle.

Jonah snorts before shaking his head. “Babe, I highly doubt that. You’ll be gone for the majority of the night with them. But you deserve to kick back and have fun. Just don’t go off alone and stay with the group so I can keep my sanity while you’re gone.”

“I promise.”

“One more thing. There’s a property cut down by the front door for you. Yours will be a bit different from the girls but it stills reads ‘property of the Sinful Warriors.’ That’ll let anyone around you know you’re under our direct protection. So, if they fuck with you, they fuck with us.”

I know all about the property cuts. I’ve seen the girls wearing theirs several times and I finally asked them what it meant. By the time they were done, I was a little envious. I don’t know if Jonah and I will ever get to a place where he wants to give me a cut. I can only hope. This man is and always will be the love of my life.

Crap.

I didn’t expect that. I know I’ve been falling for him again, but to say love so soon… I could be making the biggest mistake of my life falling for him so fast. I don’t think I could take another heartbreak again. My internal thoughts have me spiraling and now I’m starting to panic, wondering if I’m making a huge mistake.

“Hey, where did you go, Maddy? You’ve gone pale and your breathing picked up.”

I shake my head and try and take a step back, but Jonah tightens his arms around me. He stands, leans in close to my face and stares into my eyes.

“Breathe for me, Maddy. Breathe. I know this is scary and a lot is happening pretty fast. We will move as fast as you want. I just want you in my life, Maddy. I don’t think I can handle losing you again.”

My breathing slows and the room stops spinning. I gaze into his eyes and see the honesty and the pleading. He’s scared for me to walk out that door and disappear. Rising on my toes, I bring my lips to his. Jonah is taken off guard but quickly recovers and he palms the back of my neck and angles my head to kiss me deeper.

A whimper falls from my lips as I throw my arms around his neck. I rub my body against his and Jonah groans into the kiss. His erection pokes me in the stomach and I shiver. Jonah flips us around and the next thing I know, my back is hitting the bed. I only have a few seconds to adjust to the sudden movement before Jonah is on me again.

He climbs between my legs and licks his way up my neck. I thrust my hips upward and rub against his hard length.

“Fuck,” he groans against my neck.

“Jonah,” I whimper as I clutch his shoulders, silently begging for more. He brings his lips back to mine and devours my mouth. Taking my lip between his teeth, he gives me a quick bite and I jump from surprise. Jonah has never done anything rough with me, even when we were younger. It was always sweet and tender. I’m not turned off in any way.

If anything, I’m intrigued.

Jonah must have completely misunderstood what happened because in the next second, he’s standing at the foot of the bed, panting. I open my mouth to explain that he didn’t hurt me, but he cuts me off.

“Fuck! I’m sorry, Maddy. I said we would take this slow and here I am jumping you. I didn’t mean to scare you, baby. I’m going to head out so you can get dressed. I’ll see you before you leave later.”

He turns around and starts for the door. I’m livid. He keeps making decisions about my feelings. He doesn’t ask, he just assumes. This stops right now. Hopping off the bed, I race to the door and slam it shut as he opens it. Jonah looks down at me, taken aback by my actions.

Throwing my arms around his neck, I proceed to climb him like a monkey in a banana tree. Wrapping my legs around his waist, I thrust my hips into his groin. Jonah hisses while trying to hold my hips still.

Not happening.

I suck his lip into my mouth before giving it a bite of my own. Jonah groans and then my back is against the door. He’s kissing me with so much passion. My nipples are painfully hard in my bra. When his tongue enters my mouth, I give it a good suck. Jonah grinds into me making me shiver. I rip my lips from his with a satisfied moan.

“You didn’t hurt me, baby. It just shocked me a little, but I liked it.”

“Yeah?” he rasps.

I nod and just as our lips are coming together again, there’s a tiny knock on the door.

“Mad?” Liam’s voice comes through the door.

“Fuck,” Jonah groans and rests his head on my shoulder.

Laughing, I disentangle myself from him. I check the mirror, straighten myself up, and open the door. Liam is standing there with Duke and Daisy by his side. They never let him visit my room alone. I think it’s great those two are so protective of the kids. I kneel down in front of him, and he gives me a shy smile. His cheeks tinge with a little pink as he blushes.

“Wanna watch some more Paw Patrol ?” I ask him.

He nods and I pick him up. Tucking his face in my neck, he gives Thor a small wave. I sit against the headboard as Liam snuggles in. After I’ve got the show on for him, I look over to Jonah. He’s smiling while watching us.

“You’re a natural.”

My heart skips a beat. “Thanks. You wanna stay for a bit?”

Jonah nods and sits on the other side of Liam. Once he’s settled in, Liam turns to snuggle against Jonah. That’s how we spend the next hour. Will comes up to the room to retrieve Liam and he tries to pout his way into staying.

“I’m sorry, bud. Madison is going out tonight so you’re going to Gigi’s.”

Liam perks up and races off the bed. When he makes it to door, he stops to turns back at me. He climbs back into the bed and gives Jonah a hug and then me. He goes back to Will and raises his arms to be picked up. “Bye.” He waves as Will carries him out of the room.

Once he’s gone, Jonah hops off the bed. “I’m going to go and let you get dressed. Remember to stay with the girls but most of all have fun.” He gives me a quick peck before leaving. I walk over to my closet and exam what to wear. I find a cute blue spaghetti-strap top. Grabbing my favorite pair of jeans and black heels, I headed for the bathroom.

I have an extra pep in my step tonight. It might have taken me twenty-eight years to have a girls’ night but better late than never. Right?