Unloved Mate (Wolves Of Night Shade Pack)

9

Valor

Tonight was a fucking full moon. I guess I was so wrapped up in what was happening with these two men that I had lost track of fucking time. I didn't want to be here on a full moon because, since my double rejection, I hated going to the full moon runs. Although I did once in a while, it was a reminder that I wasn't enough and I didn't want that. Not when I was with him. That feeling has somehow gotten rid of the joy I was feeling at being with Kane.

We had arrived at the venue of the ball, which the pack members dedicated to their new Alpha. It was the same thing Night Shade did for Logan when he ascended as Alpha. Except in this case, the Midnight Shadow Lycans celebrated their Alpha’s survival. I didn't bother to listen to them eavesdrop because I believed Kane would tell me his story whenever he felt it was the right time. He still had his hands wrapped around my waist as he introduced me to the family. “This is Valor, my date.”

He said with an excited expression on his face.

“Hello, everyone.”

I replied to them, extending my hands to the first man. He had a light brown skin tone that marched with his curly black hair and brown irises. “Beta Rohan.”

He introduced himself.

“I’m Asher,”

the other guy said. He had a brown skin color, and gray irises. His eye color made him stand out from the others. “Gamma.”

“This is Leda. The pack’s witch.”

Kane introduced the woman in their midst.

“I can introduce myself, Kane. I'm Leda Fairfax,”

she took my hands in a handshake. She smiled at me, her blue irises holding my silver with her long, straight black hair cascading down her ivory skin. “Welcome to Midnight Shadow Pack.”

“Thank you so much, all of you.”

I prattled with a grin.

“Come on, let's get a glass of wine.”

Kane said, still holding onto me. I gave him a smile, and we both sauntered to the bar at the corner of the room, which was overflowing with wine. They were servers helping with distributing the wine and I wondered why we weren't taking from them.

“I just wanted to know if you're ok.”

“I am.”

“I know you have a lot of questions about all of this, and I promise to answer them,”

he reassured, leaning closer and placing a kiss on my earlobe. I gave him a nod. We arrived at the bar, and he leaned against the counter, signaling the bartender for a bottle. “Anyway, I don't want us to take what they're serving, because I'm sure Asher must have fucked it up. We don't get drunk, but he adds some sort of shit to it, heightening its effect. Just for the fun.”

“Mm hmm.”

I nodded. The bartender poured us two glasses of wine, and we took them, taking a swig and turning to the Lycan bloods present.

We went from drinking wine to dancing to the music. I enjoyed having Kane so close to my body, holding me, my wolf giddy to be with him. But I still felt a chill of fear running through my spine, knowing that I would have to face turning down Kane’s offer to join him for the run. I didn't think I wanted to be out there. Of course, I loved running in wolf form and feeling the bond with other shifters, but I didn't feel like it all the time. Kane was really concerned about my welfare during the time we danced together, asking me if I was alright but my response was always the same.

“Yes, I'm fine.”

I answered when he asked for the umpteenth time.

“Then say it like you have life in yourself,”

he chuckled, concern in his eyes. The other shifters had left to prepare for the moon run, and it was just me and him in the ballroom, swaying to the music. “Valor, I'd understand if you want to go back. I can take you back.”

He reassured and let me go, turning away and palming his face in frustration.

“No, it's not that.”

I shook my head.

“Then what is it?”

He quizzed and cleared the distance between us, taking my hands and placing it on his chest, a possessive rumble emerging from his throat. “I know we don't know each other very much. But I want you to understand that I'll listen to you whenever you're ready to share your problem.”

“I can't go to the full moon run.”

I wrapped my hands around his and led him to the stairs. We both sat down facing the moon, which was halfway up in the sky. “I’m sorry.”

I said, averting my gaze from him.

“Hey, you don't have to apologize. I would never make you feel less about what you want, even if it's not in my favor.”

“It’s just that it reminds me of the rejection I faced. I mean, what if it happens again?”

“I won't let that happen,”

he answered quickly, faster than I expected, and I narrowed my gaze at him. “Look, Valor. You don’t have to put your life on hold because a bunch of idiots didn’t see you for who you’re. Beautiful,”

he reached out to my cheek and brushed his knuckles against it. “You can’t let them have that power over you.”

“But sometimes it makes me feel like I'm not enough. But I know I am. It's just that the experiences I've had just keep reminding me. I know I should move on, I know, I know, but it's hard. Some days, everything is good and the next, it's like you're having the worst days of your life.”

“Hey, hey. You have me now. I won't let anything happen to you. I'll be here with you during the good days and the bad days. You and I, Valor.”

He took my hands, placing it on his chest so I could feel his heartbeat. He put his hands on mine and I chuckled. I was now feeling a renewed sense of confidence.

“Thank you so much.”

“Now come on, let's go to bed. The full moon run can happen without me.”

“No. You're the Alpha. You need to be with your people,”

I convinced. “I’ll find my way back to the house and maybe you'll keep your promise on unlacing my corset,”

heat burned in my cheeks as I said the words. A possessive growl rumbled in his chest. “I’ll be there waiting for you.”

I wasn't lying to him. I would stay and wait for him because going back to Zeke didn't feel safe for me. Not until I figured out what he was up to. I had to stay here and see what my next step of action would be.

He nodded at my words and rose to his feet, helping me up and placing a tender kiss on my forehead. I smiled at him and watched as he walked away.

My wolf wasn't pleased that I was letting Kane go to the full moon run alone. He was really having a good feeling about tonight's run. Again, I had to double back on Kane’s words. What did I see in myself? Was I going to let the experiences of my past continue to dictate how I lived or loved forever. Would I look in the mirror and like what I see every damn time? Or would I keep hiding in the corner, waiting for some miracle to happen?

“Please, Valor. Don't leave him alone,”

my wolf purred. “I need to be with Creed.”

“So you've been communicating with his beast behind my back.”

“Yes, and he wants you. He wants you so bad. I want him too, and it just feels so right. What if he's our mate? We can only find out after the full moon run. I know he's our mate, Valor. Please, just…”

My wolf was saying, and I tried to force him back, but he didn't budge. I wasn’t surprised. With the full moon on the rise, if we had a bond, Leo would detect it first. This time, he was stronger. “Come on, Valor. He's leaving.”

He continued to protest.

“Kane!”

I called out, finally giving into my wolf and letting him win.

I ran to him until I caught up and watched the puzzled expression adorning his beautiful face with his arched brows. “Shouldn’t you be heading back to the house?”

“My wolf wants to run with you. I… I want to run with you.”

I let out and groaned at Leo. Whatever the outcome was tonight. I'll live with it. Maybe, maybe I'm enough. It's really funny how Leo has been silent around Zeke and now I'm with Kane, he just can't keep quiet in my head.

“Come on, the pack is waiting.”

The full moon ended as quickly as it started. Lycans shifting into their beastly form and leaping into the forest. I tailed on behind, keeping up with Kane’s speed until we all rounded the pack territory. When the run was over, and I shifted back into my human form, I stood in front of Kane transcended by his scent. “Mate.”

I muttered.

“Told ya so.”

My wolf thundered at me.

“Mate.”

He said, opening his arms for me. I let out an exhilarated chuckle and ran into his arms, and he embraced me, holding me tightly. Tears sprung from my eyes, knowing what it felt like to know the tether of fate, to be accepted by someone who truly saw my worth, who looked at me like I was the most beautiful person on the earth. Oh, goddess, how beautiful it felt.

“I, Kane Creed Diallo, Lycan Alpha of Midnight Shadow Pack, accept you, Delta Valor Leo O'Donnell of Night Shade Pack as my mate.”

He said heartily and claimed my lips in a kiss.

“I, Delta Valor Leo O'Donnell, of Night Shade Pack accept you, Kane Creed Diallo, Lycan Alpha of Midnight Shadow Pack as my mate.”

I responded and deepened the kiss between us.

“You won't be taking off the corset anymore. My wolf literally ripped it to shreds.”

“We’ll have other balls and weddings.”

“Weddings?”

“Of course, I want to spend the rest of my supernatural life with you. I knew it from the first moment I laid my eyes on you.”

“Well, I'll have to think about that.”

“You don't have to give me an answer now. Take your time, little wolf. You're my mate. We'll always be together.”

Kane smiled at me, and we headed back to the house. He carried me in his enormous arms until we arrived in his room. He kicked the door open and closed it with me in his arms, taking me to the bed and laying me on it.

“There’s something you should know.”

“What is it?”

“I’ve never had sex with a man before.”

The thought of having him rock my world sent heat to my core, causing my dick to twitch.

“It’s ok if you don't want to complete the bond now. We could wait until the next full moon.”

“No, I want this now. With you.”

I said, still shy from my own words.

“Mm,”

he sat on the bed and faced me. “I want you to enjoy your first time. See, tonight isn't just about me. It is about us. If you're not ok with what I'm doing, be open about it, ok? Because I want you to feel as much pleasure as I do.”

He explained and I nodded. His lips curled into a smirk and he knelt on the bed, leaning closer until he claimed my lips in a desperate kiss. The fierceness of the lip lock showing how much he wanted to have me. A moan of pleasure croaked from my throat as I splayed my hands over the ink that covered his chest. He broke off from the kiss, ravishing my neck with kisses, down to my chest, taking each of my hard nipple one after the other. A light shiver raced through my spine, and I grunted in ecstasy, pressing my body closer to his. His tongue traced from my nipple down to my groin, his fangs brushing against my skin. He kissed my cockhead, swiping his tongue over the slit and licking off the pre-cum. He put his hands on my chest, and I threw my head backward, overwhelmed by the sudden pleasure. Smirking, he leveled his gaze at me, a growl spurting from his throat, the look of pleasure in his eyes doing things to my insides.

“Eyes on me, little wolf,”

he hummed, crimson flashing in his eyes. “By the time I'm done with you. You wouldn't want any other man touching your perfect body.”

He said and kissed my cock again, this time swallowing me whole. An unexpected exhale escaped my throat, and I grunted out, my eyes rolling to the back of my head, overwhelmed by the delectation of having him worship my body. He drove me to the edge to the point of my orgasm, then he pulled away and moved back to my lips, claiming them once more.

I exchanged our position, straddling on him with my hands on his chest. He held my waist, guiding me as I ground on his erection. “Fuck, little wolf. You really know how to awaken my beast. Creed wants you as much as I want you.”

He hissed through gritted teeth. I smiled and leaned in, kissing him, rough and desperate. A raspy moan escaped my throat as my lips left his mouth and descended to his chest, moving until I reached his throbbing cock. His cock length was thick and dark in color, not too long or short, and it had a curve that I knew would hit the spot every damn time. I gently wrapped my hands around his length and swiped my tongue over the slit, tasting his bitter-sweetness. My lips stretched around his cockhead, driving him with intense pleasure and I swallowed him some more until I was stretching at the base of his cock. He had a concerned look in his eyes, but I gave him a nod of reassurance that I was fine. I was enjoying this. I choked on his cock, bobbing against his length, the tingle of pleasure moving from my lips to my entire body. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as I pulled away, drawing a strand of saliva with my movement.

“I want you inside me.”

I hissed, and a smile tugged at the corner of his lips. He let out a throaty growl as a sign of his possessiveness, his hands curling around my arm and pulling me closer. As our bodies collided softly, he turned me over, pressing me against the bed, his arms caging me as he smiled. “I’ve waited for this moment my whole life.”

He said, ravaging my body with kisses until he got between my ass. With my legs tilted backward, he buried his face between my ass cheeks, the stubble on his jaw gently brushing against my skin and sending goosebumps through me, his tongue teasing my hole, tasting my sweetness. He kept working on me, gently sliding his fingers into me and stretching me until I was ready for penetration.

“Are you sure you're ready for this?”

He reached out to the drawer and took out a lube, spilling some in his hands and coating my crack with it.

“Yes, I am.”

I told him. This was the fucking freaking mate bond, something I've desired to have all of my life. Now it was at my grasp. I wouldn’t turn it away. I wanted to complete the bond, to be with Kane. He gave me a nod of approval and held my hips, positioning his cock at my entrance and gently pushing inside. My mouth formed an O at the intrusion, feeling the fullness that came with having him inside me.

“I’m not all the way in.”

He chuckled and pulled out, pushing back inside until he buried his length deep inside me. My cock twitched and his hands tightened around my hips, holding me in place as he pushed in and out of me. He started with gentle thrusts, until I had adjusted to his size, the sting turning into pleasure. I grunted out, overwhelmed by the feeling of ecstasy as he drove into me. “Oh, fuck, Kane.”

My voice squealed and the crimson in his irises flashed, showing me that his beast, Creed, was present. My wolf came into my head, all excited and giddy with the completion of the mating bond. Kane pulled me up, and I braced my hands around his neck, leaning on his forehead and kissing him as he continued to pump his cock into me. He let out a gruff sound, and I chuckled at him as he moved out of the bed, our bodies still meshed in the contact, his huge cock stretching and filling me with fullness. He placed me against the wall and this time he thrusted into me in rapid pace, each time the tip of his cock brushed against my prostrate, causing me to cry out in undeniable sparks of rapture, driving me crazy. My lips dragged against my bottom lip, and I tried to stifle my moan, but Kane’s voice stopped me. “I want to hear your filthy moans, little wolf. I want you to fucking cry out my name as I come inside you and mark you so the whole of Midnight Shadow Pack will know that you belong to me. That we belong to each other.”

“Oh, fuck, yes.”

I cried and tightened my grip around him, the rings of muscles clenching around his cock as he continued to drive into me without stopping.

That ethereal feeling designated by the moon goddess for fated wolves washed over me in pleasure and I could feel the strands of our lives, that of Kane and I, becoming one. The goddess tethering our bond to each other. Creed manifested in Kane's eyes, his fangs lengthening as he leaned closer to my neck. He drove them into me, slightly above my shoulder, and pulled away, swiping his tongue over the blood and licking me clean.

“Oh, you look so sexy when you fucking bleed, little wolf,”

he purred. “Ours, ours, ours.”

He and his wolf hummed. I felt the same tingling just when he titled his neck and I buried my fangs into him, pulling away and swiping off the blood with my tongue. Just when I felt the mating bond snapping into place, Kane took me to the bed and placed me on the mattress cover, my ass hanging off from the edge of the bed as he hammered into me. Sweat trickled down his scalp as we both neared our orgasm.

“Oh, fuck, Valor. I'm going to come.”

He grunted and quickened his pace, shoving me deeper into the bed. My tight hole clenched around his swelled dick and he continued to fuck me, faster and harder with each pound. “Mine, mine, mine!”

His deep baritone rumbled each word, his gaze lifting to meet mine in an intensity that steals my breath away.

“Yes, fuck, yours, Alpha.”

“Mm, so fucking tight, little wolf. For me, all for me. My mate,”

he rasped. “Fuck, my knot.”

He snapped his head, crimson flecks appearing in his eyes. My hole clenched so tight around his cock. He slammed all the way into me, giving me the best orgasm of my life. He came, grunting and growling as he finished. I tried to move against him, and his cock brushed against my prostate, sending a thrill of pleasure through me.

“What is that?”

“It's my knot. I...”

“Fuck, it feels so good.”

I moved against his cock, and suddenly, he hauled me to his chest, our bodies still joined together.

“How long is it going to last?”

“Probably half an hour,”

he answered and sat on the bed with me straddling on his hips, feeling the swell of his cock brush against the nerves of my prostate. I kissed him and he just let me. “If I start again...”

He growled and looked at me with affection in his eyes. He bucked his hips and I sucked in a deep breath and he let out another growl. I didn't need to say that it felt so good. He knew from the look in my eyes. “How do you feel?”

He inquired and kissed my forehead.

“Great. I just don't want to lose your scent. I want to wake up with you.”

I said to him.

“That you will always have.”

He kissed me over and over until I couldn't hold back my laughter anymore.

Today was the best day of my life.