Christmas with my Three Best Friends (Lucky Lady Reverse Harems)

Chapter 31

31

Shay

F ive minutes later, I’m still standing by the fireplace, flames radiating a pleasant warmth against the back of my legs. Jax sits on the armrest of the sofa, while Richard moves closer to me and Marius slowly paces around the living room, hands in his jacket pocket while a nervous frown casts shadows over his sweet, brown eyes.

My senses are alight, my whole being attuned to their presence. I’d forgotten how intense it was to simply be around them, let alone be touched and loved by them. Gosh, they’re such a powerful combination of kindness, strength, and balance. No wonder I fell so deeply, no wonder not a day goes by that I don’t miss them—my friends, my business partners, my lovers.

But I need to hear what they have to say, first and foremost.

“I’m sorry we showed up like this,” Richard is the first to speak. “I was worried you wouldn’t want to see us if we called in advance.”

“To be honest, we were trying to get to you before Vincent,” Marius adds, subtly amused. “But obviously you handled him without a problem.”

“Just a kick in the nuts,” I reply.

Jax chuckles dryly. “Attagirl.”

“I didn’t want to have to do that, but he didn’t leave me with a more decent option,” I say.

“Well, at least you’re the one who handled him,” Jax says. “I doubt I would’ve stopped at a kick in the balls.”

We laugh, and it feels nice as I sense the anguish dissipating between us. At least we’re still close, at least we can still laugh about things in a comfortable manner. There’s plenty of awkwardness and tension between us even now, yet I can’t help but… hope something is about to change. At the same time, my self-sabotaging brain keeps telling me not to get lost in any wishful thinking. My heart can’t take another disappointment.

“The point is, Shay… We didn’t do right by you,” Marius says. The pained look in his eyes has my very soul tangled, struggling for release. “When Vincent showed up, I should’ve been more adamant about keeping him out of our lives.”

“And when I started flirting with the idea of another gym, I should’ve paid more attention to you, I should’ve listened to you,” Richard says.

“Don’t even get me going with my commitment issues,” Jax grumbles. “I was getting close to you, to the idea of building something beautiful… you know, the four of us together. And I chickened out. Meanwhile, you were trying to keep us in the same field, to balance our dynamic and to protect our relationship while also working to protect yourself. We didn’t understand, we didn’t see what was happening until we felt you slipping away.”

Marius gently takes my hands in his. “The truth is, I love you, Shay. I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone in this life. You’re it for me. I can’t see myself being with anybody else. And I’m not the only one who feels this way, either.”

“We all feel it,” Richard adds, watching me closely. “I love you.”

“And I love you, too,” Jax says. “We’re fine with sharing you, we’re happier sharing you and being tight like this than not being at all. If anything, I think we’re happier when it’s the four of us together than the four of us apart.”

My heart unravels as I listen to these men profess their affection for me. I’ve wanted to hear these words for a long time, yet I almost can’t believe any of this is real. Could it be a dream? Should I try pinching myself? No, Marius’s touch is enough to remind me it’s all too real and wonderful and scary at the same time.

“I love you all equally,” I manage, choking up on another wave of tears. “But I wasn’t the best girlfriend… I got scared. Insecure. I pulled back instead of talking to you about it.”

“Shay, we messed up,” Marius says. “But what I can say is… I hope you’re willing to give us another chance. We’re ready to try again. This time, we’re ready to go all the way in with you. For the long run. A proper relationship. Well, as proper as a four-way can go.”

“It’s crazy, isn’t it?” I try to laugh, but the tears are already streaming down my cheeks.

Marius wipes them away with a gentle stroke of the back of his hand, then kisses my lips softly. “Crazy but real, Shay. I want you in my life, I want to be in your life. We belong together, the four of us. It’s weird, it’s rare, but why not give it a shot if it works, if it makes us happy, huh? I’m a better man because of you, I’m a better man just by being around you. And I want to keep growing, to evolve by your side. Who knows where it might lead? Hell, I could conquer the world with a woman like you beside me.”

“Whatever you decide, just know I’m not leaving,” Richard says. “Screw another gym. Screw Vincent and anybody else who tries to get between us. We built something wonderful with West Key, and I’m sorry it took you leaving for me to really understand our value as a family unit. Because that’s what we are. You said it yourself. You can’t choose your biological family, but you can definitely choose and build your lifelong family. You’re my lifelong family, Shay. You and Jax and Marius.”

I look to Jax, profoundly touched by the warm blue of his eyes. “I never imagined I’d want something like this,” he says. “Honestly, if you’d told me I’d wind up in this type of a situation, I would’ve laughed my ass off.”

This is too much, but it’s also just what I wanted, what I’ve dreamed of. If I back away, if I weasel out now, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. There’s no point in preparing for a life without these men. They’re here, and they’re telling me they want me for as long as we’re breathing.

“How do we do this?” I wonder aloud. “Because I don’t want to be without you, either.”

“Why don’t we try to pick up where we left off?” Richard suggests, his green gaze darkening with longing and desire. I recognize that shadow well. I see it within myself. “We were going to spend our time together. Seven days in the week, surely, we could make room for one another in a way that keeps the four of us close and sated.”

“Sated,” I giggle softly.

Marius slips an arm around my waist, pulling me close. I am soft against his toned body, the rock-hard curves of his muscles fitting me perfectly, something akin to a second skin as I surrender to his embrace. “I love you, Shay. I’ll say it until I can’t breathe anymore. I love you. And I don’t ever want to leave your side.”

“Oh, Marius,” I mumble and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him into a deep kiss.

Richard comes closer, then gently cups my cheek and captures my mouth for himself. “We’re perfect just like this,” he whispers against my lips. “Shay, we’re unbeatable.”

“Jax, come here,” I call out, my voice trembling as he gets up from the sofa and joins us. I’m nestled between three strong bodies with golden hearts and radiant souls. I’m simmering with desire and longing and weeks’ worth of steady inner wildfires, their absence having wreaked havoc on my heart. But everything feels better now, as they’re back and holding me tightly. “Kiss me. Kiss me until the end of time.”

Jax takes over for a moment, his tongue playfully searching for mine. I’d missed the taste of him, I’d missed his fingers trailing invisible lines down my spine. Richard runs his fingers through my hair, nibbling on my earlobe and slowly licking the side of my neck. My skin catches fire as Marius swiftly pulls the zipper down on my pajamas.

Within seconds, I’m naked and surrounded, gleefully defeated and eager to be dominated.

“You’re so warm and soft,” Marius whispers as he kisses me next.

Richard’s fingers work their way down my sides as he positions himself behind me. I hear zippers and buttons loosening, the shuffling of clothes landing on the floor, of boots thudding and belt buckles clinking, but I barely register anything until I glance around and see the three of them naked and hard, ready to take me every which way.

My core is on fire. And Richard quickly discovers I’m dripping wet as his fingers slide between my folds, stumbling upon a tiny nub in need of his attention.

“It’s as if not a day has passed, and we’re still in Chappaqua,” Richard says.

“You know, there’s something we never got to do,” Jax adds, his index and thumb closing around my nipple. “The very first item on your naughty list…”

I suck in a breath as Richard continues his exploration. My back arches instinctively, and I rest my head on his shoulder as Jax massages my breast, occasionally pinching to get a rise out of me. Every whimper that escapes my throat makes him smile. Marius makes me quiver with his deep and hungry kisses.

There’s no point in fighting this any longer.

Why would I, when I’m happy? Why would I, when it’s all I ever wanted?

“The three of you at once,” I manage, remembering the bullet point that started this whole thing, and laugh as they guide me closer to the fireplace. I’m not sure how long Cassandra will be out, but I hope it’s for a few more hours, at least, because we’re about to start something I don’t want to ever end.

Marius pulls the furry rug right in front of the fire, then gets on his knees in front of me. I hold my breath as his fingers dig into my hips, and he pulls me in. A split-second later, he’s eating me out like I’m his last meal, licking and suckling on my clit until I gradually begin to crumble.

“Oh, yes,” I moan as I struggle to stay upright, my knees softening.

Richard stays behind me and slides a hand between my ass cheeks, fingers probing my wet pussy before they go in. One, at first, just to test me. Then two, to stretch me, to prime me for what’s about to come later. Then three, increasing the rhythm and widening each thrust until my hips sway back and forth, until my core tightens. Marius closes his lips around my clit, and I shove my fingers through his curly, black hair, bracing for the impending release.

Jax strokes himself with one hand, devilishly grinning as he watches me come. His other hand comes up to caress my face, his thumb slipping between my lips. I suck it, breathing raggedly as I climax, as I fall apart, completely deconstructed in a desperately needed orgasm. My whole being pulsates as Richard finger-fucks me, wringing my pussy dry while Marius licks me into sheer madness, riding the wave of my climax until I’m spent, until I’m soft and ready for infinitely more.

“Come here,” Marius commands me as he lays on his back.

I get on top, and he holds his gorgeously swollen cock for me to ease onto. My knees rest comfortably on the furry rug while Richard moves in front of me. I take him in my mouth just as Marius loses himself inside me. I tremble with delight as I’m stretched and filled to the brim, but it only gets better as Jax gets behind and joins Marius inside me.

“Oh, God!” I cry out, every fiber in my body losing all tension as two cocks dominate my pussy.

Richard quietly guides my mouth back, and I take him, gladly, hungrily.

“You wanted the three of us at once,” Marius grunts as he plants his heels into the floor, waiting for me to start grinding against him for a motion to be established.

I did want the three of them at once. I want the three of them at once, and this is more than I ever imagined. It’s incredible. It’s deliciously decadent. And I would take all three of them for life, until I can’t even move anymore. My nipples perk up as shivers run down my spine.

“Hold still,” Jax says, grabbing me by the back of the neck. He fucks me hard and deep, and so does Marius. I can only welcome them both as I’m held in place. Richard keeps my mouth busy and my lips stretched as I lick and swallow him whole. “That’s it, baby, just like that…”

“Touch yourself,” Marius tells me.

I don’t know where this strength comes from, but I leave one hand on his muscular shoulder for support, while the other drops to where my tender clit awaits. I flick it hard as Marius and Jax pound into me. Faster. Deeper. Oh, damn, I’m so raw and hyper-sensitive…

“Mhm…” I manage as I suckle Richard’s cock, tighter and faster. I feel the veins swelling, the taste of pre-cum dripping down my tongue as I relax the back of my throat under Jax’s grip. He’s keeping me in place for Richard to fuck my mouth as deep as he likes.

I surrender to them and come apart.

Marius caresses my breast, panting as he watches me pleasure myself with three men inside me. I’m struggling to breathe as I flick my clit harder and faster, the fiery storm unraveling. I tighten around them, sucking Richard ravenously until it hits me.

The ultimate release. The hot and cold ripples blowing through me like an electrical storm as I come, as I explode all over Marius and Jax. I’m held tightly as I ride the wave, as I’m claimed and stretched and dissolved into the sweetest nothingness before I’m put back together and shared and claimed some more. The rhythm doesn’t stop. I dance with it, I live with it, I breathe it.

“Look at me,” Richard gasps.

Our eyes meet, and I feel his seed filling my mouth and sliding down my throat. I swallow every drop, smiling in a sparkling haze as I welcome everything he wishes to give me. Jax’s arm comes around my waist. He needs me to stay put, pounding deeper and harder until I cry out in ecstasy. I’m putty in their hands.

“Dammit, Shay, you were made for this,” Marius says as he gazes lovingly up at me.

“Give it to me,” I whisper. “All of it. Give it to me.”

“I fucking love you so much it hurts,” Jax growls and goes even harder. I’m stretched out of my mind as Richard watches, grinning like a lazy cat as pleasure twinkles in his emerald eyes.

“I love you!” I scream as my orgasm unfurls almost continuously. I don’t even know how to stop or if I can stop, quivering like a leaf in the wind until I feel them… until I feel Jax and Marius blow up inside me.

The heat spreads through my core, my pussy tender as their cocks throb, as they spill everything within, as I let myself go and melt, coming over and over until there’s barely a breath left in my chest. Moments later, I’m collapsing on top of Marius, while Jax and Richard settle beside us. Our naked bodies glisten with sweat and the ethereal beauty of afterglow as the fire keeps burning in the fireplace, as the flames dance with as much glee as our souls.

I forget myself. I leave everything behind me. The pain. The struggles. The loneliness. The nights I spent bracing myself for a lifetime of solitude, for a lifetime of searching for something I know I’ll never again have with anyone other than Marius, Jax, and Richard. This it is for us. This is where we belong and how we belong. My own being is screaming this at me, the words loud and clear in the back of my head as I breathe Marius in, as I kiss his lips softly, as Jax playfully bites my shoulder, as Richard gives me the sweetest smile.

We were drawn together by life and a simple, innocent mistake.

But we’re staying together because we make sense. Because our bodies fit perfectly on the same canvas. Because our hearts play the same song, and our souls shine through the same light. We make sense because the universe wanted us to happen, despite the tumbles and the hurdles, despite those who tried to steer us from our paths.

And as I watch the orange flames dim over the glimmering embers, as the silvery ashes shimmer underneath, and as the smell of burnt wood and masculine sweat and mindless lovemaking pours into my lungs, I understand we’re staying together because it’s the only way for us to even exist. I only hope a baby won’t drive them away. But we’ll address that later.

Right now, I just want this moment. I just want the four of us, precisely like this.