Chapter 9
Evan
How was it possible for every part of my body to ache while still being hornier than all the moments of attraction I’d ever experienced all in one? I’d heard stories of heats being intense—overwhelming, even.
Since the only one I’d had was so mild, I assumed those stories were exaggerations. Tall tales that had gotten dramatized for effect.
But the tsunami of pain and excitement and desperation and need that was all swirling around inside me confirmed the stories were true and not hyperbole.
Had anyone ever died from being in heat?
It seemed pretty likely, and I was at least 50% certain I’d be one of those cases. I tried to jack off to see if that would help, but it didn’t. It only made my need stronger, so I used my fingers to attempt to fuck myself. I’ve never tried to do that before, and the sharp pain I felt at first seemed like it might actually have had a good effect, but then nothing. Absolutely nothing.
Within seconds, that brief reprieve was gone and the need to have a thick alpha cock in my ass was back with a vengeance. Holden’s was so big and thick that I was sure it wouldn’t fit, and yet, I also knew with the same level of assurance that it was the only thing I wanted.
The only way to truly fill me up and make me right would be to get that huge monster inside me, filling me with his seed, and then locking it inside until I was fully claimed by that man.
I leaned over to where Holden’s naked body had been earlier and pressed my face against the comforter, inhaling his manly scent. I could trace the outline of his body as if it were a chalk line, but where his hard cock had been, I could almost taste it. The stronger scent where I knew his tip had rested made me almost come from the thought of him dripping any arousal onto the bed with me just beside him.
Slick had been pouring out of me for hours, and I didn’t know how to make it stop. Nothing seemed to work, and I knew I would have to go to Holden eventually. I would beg and appeal to his humanity for relief if that’s what it took. He had told me I could call upon him, but my mind was telling me I didn’t actually want to do that if he didn’t show any interest back.
Heats were for one reason and one reason only. Breeding.
For an alpha male to breed an elf, he would be diluting his bloodline so completely that I couldn’t imagine Holden choosing to do that. Then again, if I asked nicely…
It just hurt so bad. Every part of me felt like it was on fire, and when I couldn’t take any more, the air coming into the room from under the door shifted, and I knew Holden had come inside.
“Evan, you doing alright?” He wasn’t close to my room but was definitely inside the cabin.
I had a choice to make. I could lie and tell him I was fine and hope he believed me enough to go on his way. Or I could beg him to come into the room and take my virginity and make it all better. Make love to me as if I were his omega and give my body what it truly begged for. The only thing that would sate me.
His knot locked inside me.
Before I could find the words to respond, there was a knock at the door. He was right there. “Evan, can I come in?”
“Yes.” I had pulled off all my clothes, too hot to wear anything and too desperate to break my heat that clothing just got in my way. I was sprawled on top of the bed, not under covers, and completely bared to Holden when he opened the door.
He gasped when the view and the air hit him. He covered his mouth and nose with his palm, attempting to maintain his composure by not breathing in my scent.
Seeing him standing there with a terrified look in his eyes and holding his breath actually made me laugh. “Sorry. You can leave if you need to, but…”
He dropped his hand and looked right at me. “But what? What do you need, Evan?”
I reached for my cock and started stroking it then held my knees back as wide as I could get them. “You, alpha. I need you. I want you.” I did my best to focus and look him right in the eyes.
It took him a second to peel his eyes away from my begging hole, but he finally did. He walked to me, obviously willing to help but still questioning my motives. “Why me, Evan? There are lots of alphas in this world. Are you sure you want me to be the one?”
That was easy to answer. A lot of things didn’t make sense to me, but the fact that I was meant to be here with Holden was one of the few things that did. “You’re my mate, Holden. I’m supposed to be with you and your wolf. Fate did bring me here, and now it’s up to you to keep me or not.” I swallowed back my emotion, determined not to let any tears fall that might sway him out of guilt rather than actual desire. “Will you?”
He stepped close to the bed and dropped his outer layer before pulling his T-shirt over his head. “Fuck yeah, I will.” His shoes were already off, but he dropped his pants and slipped his socks off too. “I have condoms around here somewhere. Should I put one on?”
“No!” I almost cried at the suggestion. “You have to come inside me. Coat me with your seed and let my magic do its thing from there.”
Holden was suddenly naked and standing over me, watching as I frantically stroked my cock, looking for a release that only he could give me.
He placed his hand over mine and gently opened up my fingers until my dick was freed. “Let me help you with that, omega. I’ve got you. Your alpha’s got you.”