Ruin’s Embattlement (Tenillo Guardians AIMC #19)

Desi Chapter 11

I was growing more nervous, but in a good way, I think. So far, I was more than happy with how I reacted to what we’d both done. I had no clue my boobs could be pleasured enough to get me off. When I came, I wanted to cry. Not once had I been scared, and the gratification in my body felt wonderful. Anxious to give him something back, I asked about his nipples. The exploration I made not only made us both discover something about him, but it had him close. I jumped at the opportunity to get him totally naked.

I knew what men looked like naked, of course. But this would be the first time the man was someone I was going to be intimate with freely, not someone forcing themselves on me. I’d seen guys in porn, but they hadn’t truly interested me other than from a practical stance. Adara had suggested I watch it to see if it would make me less scared of a man’s body. She knew I couldn’t go out and try it with a guy in person. Her recommendation did allow me to observe sex between two people who wanted it, not forced to endure it.

Now I was staring down at my hand on Ruin’s zipper. The lump underneath it seemed pretty big to me. I was nervous about what was coming, but mainly in a good way. I wanted to see what he looked like. I knew men came in different sizes and shapes. Taking it slow, I unzipped him. I was afraid I’d catch his skin, so as I did, I wiggled my other hand underneath the fabric and placed it between him and the zipper. I discovered he didn’t have underwear on. I gulped. His hot and erect skin was pressing into the back of my hand. He groaned lightly.

When the zipper was lowered fully, I couldn’t help but lightly rub my knuckles over his cock before removing it. As I removed my hand, it sprang up to stand tall between the open folds of his jeans. I gasped. Not only was his cock long and broad, but its head was dark red and covered in precum. It gleamed. Without thought, I swiped my fingertip over it. He moaned, and his hips flexed.

With my captors, I’d been forced to do a lot of things and endure even more. I never voluntarily wanted to touch them in any way or have them touch me. That wasn’t the case with Ruin. I wanted to do everything to him and have him do the same to me. What was pushing at me right this second was the desire to know what his cum tasted like. My finger was in my mouth before I realized I’d done it. I sucked my finger clean and hummed. It was nothing like what I recalled.

“Christ, Desi, tell me you don’t hate the taste. That’s one of the hottest sights ever,” he muttered.

“I think you taste good, Tanner, but I’d better taste again to be sure,” I told him right before I lowered my head and swiped my tongue across the head of his cock. It gave me a bigger sample. I swallowed and hummed. Yeah, he was a mixture of slightly salty, a smidge tangy, and a tad sweet—all good things in my book. He groaned and fisted his hands into the bottom sheet.

I might not like how I’d gained my skill, but I knew how to give a blow job. The difference was, this time, I wanted to make it the best it could be for the man I was with. I sucked his cock deeper and swirled my tongue around his knob. I wanted to smile when I felt his hand in my hair. He gripped lightly but didn’t shove me down on him. I knew he was enjoying it, as if the sounds he was making didn’t tell the story.

As I worked him deeper, I let myself go, and I concentrated on giving him as much pleasure as I possibly could. I sucked and licked, but I also stroked his length. I’d let go to give my jaws a rest while I licked and sucked his balls. I have no idea how long I did it, but while I did, he kept making sounds and praising me.

“Fuck, baby, yeah, right there.”

“Jesus. That feels fucking amazing.”

“Shit, don’t stop.” This one was said on a whimper. His balls were tightening in my hand, telling me he was close to coming. I intensified my efforts.

“Christ! Stop, or I’ll come in your mouth,” he shouted. That’s what I wanted, so I didn’t let up. Moments later, he gave a long, drawn-out groan then his cock began to jerk and spill cum into my mouth. I swallowed his jizz as he grunted and kept pumping more out.

I didn’t stop licking, sucking, and touching him until he hissed and begged. “Baby, please, you gotta stop. I’m too sensitive.”

Taking pity on him, I reluctantly let him fall from my mouth, but not before I placed a kiss on the flared head. I never knew giving head could be so good, especially for the one not receiving it. It was true. You did experience satisfaction from sex when it was with the right person, even if you weren’t on the receiving end. Except now I was left with soaking wet panties and the deep need to have another orgasm. I was feeling crazy with need. Rolling onto my back, I arched and moaned.

The next thing I knew, he was hovering over me. He kissed me, causing my moan to extend. When he broke it, he smirked. “We’re uneven again. How about I take care of that? You look like you’re in need.”

I whimpered because what he said was true. I was so needy, and the thought of him touching me overrode any nervousness over him seeing the rest of me. I nodded. He meandered his fingers over the skin of my chest and stomach until he reached my jeans. Once there, he kept his eyes connected with mine as he undid the button and then lowered my zipper.

As the fabric loosened, he slipped his hand under it and my panties. I gasped as his finger slid between the lips of my pussy. The roughness of his skin on my hard clit made me buck against his hand. He rubbed gently back and forth, gathering my slickness on his finger.

“God, baby, you’re so wet. Please tell me I can remove these and make you come like you made me. I want to taste you and make you mindless,” he said gruffly.

“Please, yes,” I uttered hoarsely.

He raised, removed his hand, and then, gripping the waist of my pants on both sides, he started to work them down. Thankfully, they weren’t my tightest pair. As he lowered my jeans, he took my panties with them. He held my gaze even after he had no choice but to shift so he could remove them the rest of the way.

I inhaled shakily when he got them to my ankles. He removed them and laid them at the foot of his bed before he slid off my socks. I was completely naked. I watched as he slowly lowered his gaze from my face to my lower half. I heard the swift inhale he made before he was shifting. He made room so he could spread my legs and kneel between them. Nerves were beginning to grow. I moaned and jumped when he ran his finger down my slit.

“I can’t believe it,” he muttered.

“What?” I croaked.

“That you’re even more magnificent than I dreamed. I’ve pictured what you’d look like naked so many times, Desi, even if I tried not to. None of those dreams came close to this. Look at you—you’re stunning. God, I’ve got to know.”

“Know what?”

He answered me, but not with words. Instead, his fingers swiped down my folds again, and then he raised his slick finger to his mouth. He sucked it inside and moaned as his eyes closed. The expression on his face told me he liked what he was tasting. While I hadn’t felt weird tasting him, having him do the same to me was kind of unsettling.

I was about to ask if I tasted the way he imagined when he dropped flat between my legs, and his face was buried in my pussy. His tongue was lapping at me, and the sensations created along with his sounds of pleasure made me cry out.

I’d never had anyone go down on me. It hadn’t been about my enjoyment when those men used me. Ruin made it clear this was about making me come like I had him. He nuzzled, licked, petted, sucked, and even lightly nibbled every inch of my pussy. I became wetter, which I hadn’t thought was possible. It didn’t take him more than a minute or more to make me orgasm. As I did, he didn’t slow down his efforts. He kept going.

I didn’t fully come down from the high of my orgasm before he had me rising again. I’d experienced a release before, but it was my own hand that did it. Again, this was something Adara had encouraged me to try. She wanted me to know that sexual gratification was possible after what happened to me. However, none of my efforts ever made me come as hard as he did.

I realized that my hand was on the back of his head, pressing him closer to me. I eased off, but his hand came up to capture mine as he looked up at me and moved his mouth away just enough to speak.

“Don’t unless you don’t want it. Show me what you need, Desi. You’re not upsetting me at all. I love your taste and the sounds you’re making. I need you to come again,” he said urgently.

Taking him at his word, I nodded, and then when he returned to licking, I pressed him harder against me. He groaned, sending vibrations through my sensitive pussy and pushing me closer to release. He must’ve sensed it because he sped up. Along with using his lips, teeth, and tongue, he startled me by adding something new. I was unprepared for him to insert a finger inside of me gently. I tensed, and he paused. However, when I didn’t tell him no, he continued. His thrusts, paired with the other things he was doing, hurtled me toward the precipice.

I was breathing raggedly and whimpering in need when he pushed me over the edge, and I came. I screamed his name, “Tanner,” and shook from head to toe.

It seemed as if I orgasmed forever before I went limp. He placed a kiss on my clit, withdrew his finger, then moved to come to lie next to me. He rolled me into his arms and hugged me to his burning-hot chest. He nuzzled my ear and whispered, “Thank you, Desi. Thank you for trusting me with not only the gift of your trust but for allowing me to satisfy you. It was incredible, just like what you did to me.”

“I should be thanking you. You have no idea how freeing what we just did was for me.”

“I’m fucking glad. I know we have more to talk about and work out, but let me hold you for a while. I need you in my arms.”

“Okay,” I whispered.

???

Last night was overwhelming with Ruin. After our confessions about our feelings and then oral sex, we held each other. It was late by the time we were ready to talk, so we decided to postpone any more talks until today. He’d walked me back to the house and kissed me silly before he left me at the door. He said it would be better for him not to come inside. He was disappointed I wasn’t staying with him, but he knew why I said no. We had things to iron out and family to talk to. I knew Dad, Mom, and Tyson would want to know what happened when I went to see Ruin. I was shocked when I went inside. They weren’t waiting for me. I should’ve known they’d descend bright and early.

They were up before Shane was. I found them when I came out of my room to get coffee. I’d been dreaming of Ruin, making it impossible to stay in bed. It was six-thirty. I thought I could grab a coffee and sneak back to my room. Wrong. Sitting at the island were Dad and Mom. They gave me expectant looks when I walked into the kitchen. Too bad I didn’t see them first. I would’ve snuck back to my room.

I wasn’t sure what to tell them, and the thought of doing it alone was nerve-racking. Last night, Ruin and I agreed we should tell them about us together, not that it would be a surprise to them. As for the rest of the club, some seemed to have suspicions about our feelings, from what he told me, but he didn’t know if everyone did.

“Oh, hey, you guys are up early,” I said as I hurried to the coffee maker. It was still on from them making theirs. I got out a pod of my favorite coffee, popped it in, and then got my mug out of the cabinet above. I kept my back to them as it dispensed, and I poured creamer from the fridge into it. Once it was made, I knew I couldn’t avoid them any longer. I turned around to face them.

“I know you have questions.”

“We do, and you were gone for such a long time last night. We almost went to find you. You had us worried,” Dad said.

“Why? You knew where I went and why.”

“Yes, but we knew it was emotional for both of you. When emotions are running high, things can get misinterpreted or said wrong. We don’t want either of you to be hurt,” Mom added.

I was about to tell them we’d talk after Ruin and I had ours and could do this together, but I was stopped by the sound of footsteps coming down the hall. We all glanced at the doorway. I sagged in relief when Ruin came around the corner. He didn’t bother to say anything to our parents. He bypassed them and came straight to me. He pulled me against him and then kissed me. He didn’t make it a chaste peck on the cheek or lips. He kissed me with passion. I heard a faraway gasp.

When he let go of my mouth, I was dizzy and addled. His arm remained around my waist as he turned us to face them. “Morning. I thought I’d better get here before Desi was interrogated. Mind if I get a coffee first? I haven’t had my caffeine yet,” he said casually. I knew he wasn’t because of the tension in his body.

“Yes, get your coffee. It appears a lot happened last night,” Dad said. He was watching us closely. Mom was smiling in delight.

They went to the living room and took their usual seat. I stayed with Ruin. As he made his coffee, he whispered to me, “Good morning, baby. I missed you. Don’t worry. Everything will be fine.”

“I hope so. I missed you, too, and wow, what a kiss.”

He grinned and winked at me. As soon as he had his black coffee, he held my hand, and we went to join the parents. He sat on the loveseat and brought me to sit next to him. Our bodies were pressed together. After taking a sip, he got to it.

“Alright, I know you have questions. Before you fire away, know that Desi and I still have things to discuss, so we may have to defer some answers.”

“We were worried last night when she didn’t come home for hours. Although, after that greeting, I think we have different things to talk about than we thought. Mind telling us what that was about?” Dad asked.

“I thought it was self-evident. I was kissing the woman I love to wish her a good morning. She returned it. It’s the way you and Mom greet each other,” Ruin said.

“It is, but we weren’t practically enemies until last night. The two of you have barely been more than civil since you returned and, prior to that, spent years sniping at or avoiding each other,” Omen added.

“We did. I took your advice, and Desi took Mom’s. We talked and laid out everything.”

“What do you mean by everything?” Mom asked.

“About how we felt, why we fought those feelings and other concerns. By some miracle, we both love each other and want to work out a life together. We know it’ll take time and work. We’ll have to let the rest of the Infidels know, but first, we want time to get used to there being an us,” Ruin told them.

“You seem very comfortable with each other physically. What exactly happened last night?” Dad asked.

“Omen,” Mom hissed at him.

I fought not to blush or fidget. Ruin jumped in to answer. “What happened is none of your business. We’re adults.”

Dad’s expression went from worried to upset. “That may be, but this isn’t a typical situation. We don’t want Desi to be pushed into something she’s not ready for.”

“Dad, no one is pushing me. Ruin isn’t doing that. All I’m willing to say is we’re on the same page when it comes to those things and to leave it to us to work through them.” I wasn’t about to let them think Ruin was forcing me to do anything I didn’t want to.

Omen sighed. “Sorry, I just don’t want you to do something you’re not ready for. I wasn’t insinuating Ruin would force you to have sex, but things get heated, and your bodies can overrule your minds sometimes.”

“They can, but it didn’t, and we’ll make sure it doesn’t. We wanted to thank the two of you,” I quickly said.

“Thank us? For what?” Mom asked.

“We’re curious about the advice you gave us. Did you confer with each other before talking to us separately? Dad was adamant Desi loved me.”

“And you were just as sure Ruin loved me,” I told her.

I was surprised when they both shook their heads. “No, we didn’t. Not even after talking to each of you did we tell each other, although it was hard not to. It wasn’t until last night, after we sent Desi to speak to you, that Omen and I talked.”

“So all this time, you guys knew we were more than friends and brother and sister,” Ruin mused.

“Hell, bro, I knew that, just like I told you yesterday. I just don’t know what took the two of you so damn long to figure it out. I thought I’d grow old and gray before you did. And why wasn’t I invited to this party?” Tyson asked as he ambled into the room. He was in his shorts, and his hair was messy, telling me he had just woken up. It was his typical wardrobe. At first, everyone was super careful with any nudity around me, but as time passed, Tyson, Dad, and Ruin would go shirtless.

“Christ, why didn’t you clue me in ages ago, little bro? I was terrified everyone would think I was a creeper and disown me. To hear you knew all this time sucks,” Ruin grumbled.

“Oh, I never said you weren’t a creeper, just not in this instance. I can’t help you’re not as smart as you think you are,” Ty said with a huge smirk.

The two of them loved to spar. I burst out laughing when Ruin hurled himself off the loveseat at Ty. Apparently, Tyson was ready for it because he swiftly dodged his brother’s charge. A short game of evasion, then they were wrestling each other. It was fun to watch. I missed the lightheartedness they demonstrated in the past. Finally, after Ruin put him in a submission hold that Ty couldn’t get out of, they parted. Ruin sat back next to me while Tyson went to the kitchen. Coffee was his goal, too. The five of us were caffeine-in-the-morning people. While he prepared his cup, we continued the conversation. He was able to hear us still.

“So, the three of you know about us. A few more probably do. Executioner and Saint didn’t seem shocked. Does Skye?” Ruin asked.

“She suspects. And before you ask, no, I didn’t tell her. She mentioned it as a possibility a week ago. I told her I had no idea and we should let you guys work out your feelings, regardless of what they were. You have no idea how tough it was not to tell her,” Mom lamented.

“So, is this for sure a go with them?” Ty asked our parents.

“Well, if not, the way he sucked her face half off when he walked in this morning is wrong on so many levels,” Dad said.

Tyson choked on his coffee and sputtered. It wasn’t until he stopped that he said more. “Sucked her face off! Wait, I don’t know if I like this. My brother is snogging my sister. Hold up, that came out wrong, but you know what I mean. I’m used to threatening guys who like her. I feel I still should, even if it’s Ruin.”

“Snogging? Let me guess, you watched Harry Potter recently,” Ruin teased him.

“As a matter of fact, I did, with Shane. He asked me what snogging meant. Being the great uncle that I am, I explained. Speaking of him, what do you plan to tell him? And when? What about the rest of the club? Oh shit, what about Isaiah? You’re moving in with him.” He cast me a worried look.

“First off, Isaiah won’t care that I’m with Ruin. In fact, he’ll be happy. As for Shane, let us work on the when and how. He loves Ruin, but it might make things confusing for him. He sees him as an uncle. I’m not sure how much he understands about familial relationships. As for the rest of the club, we’ll do it when it makes sense. We just declared our feelings last night. Give us a little time,” I begged. Things were moving at warp speed.

Ruin’s arm tugged me closer, and he placed a kiss on my mouth. It wasn’t like the one earlier. This one was to convey comfort. “Babe, don’t stress it. Take all the time you need. As long as we’re on the same page, then I’m good. Although, you know what it does mean.”

“What?” I asked.

“You can’t go out with any more men, not even as friends, and you’re not moving away.”

I knew we had to talk, but not here and in front of our family, so I nodded.

“I think this calls for a family breakfast. We need to tell your sister and Ex the good news. Omen, will you call and tell them we’re making breakfast for everyone? The kids are probably up. They can come anytime, but it’ll be about an hour before it’s ready,” Mom said.

Just like that, our new status seemed to be accepted by a portion of our family. I prayed the rest would be as easy, especially the kids. They were young, and the dynamics of foster, step, and real siblings might be too much for them. Not long after Dad sent the text to Executioner and got an affirmative reply, Ruin made a suggestion.

“Babe, why don’t you help Mom? I’ll go get Shane up and ready for the day. I won’t say anything, but I’d like to have some time with him.”

“I think that’s a great idea. Okay, you go, and I’ll get started. Prepare yourself. Shane and the twin dynamos will be all over you. They’re still not used to you being home all the time.”

He grinned. Another kiss, this one longer, accompanied by Tyson pretending to gag, made Ruin flip him off. Ruin left the room, and I joined Mom in the kitchen. Dad and Ty were huddled together, whispering. I wondered what they were discussing.

We hadn’t gotten far before the front door opened, and the din of young, excited voices was heard. Skye warned them to hold it down. Executioner told them to take off their shoes and jackets and put them up. There was a long pause before they came storming into the living room and kitchen area. They screamed the grandparents, my, and Ty’s names before demanding hugs and kisses.

“Where’s Shane?” Joshua asked.

“He’s getting dressed,” Ty told him.

Skye greeted Dad with a kiss on the cheek and then came to the kitchen to hug Mom and me. Executioner was shaking hands with the men. I knew it was weirder for her because Omen was not only her stepdad but her husband’s best friend. They had served together. What could we say? We had twisted connections. So, when you think about it, Ruin and I together weren't that out of the norm.

A minute later, my son came tearing into the room. He was hollering Jazzy and Josh’s names. The three of them were so cute in the way they hugged each other in a circle and acted like they hadn’t seen each other for months, rather than it being last night. Their excited babble grew when Joshua and Jazzy saw Ruin. More yelling came as they attacked him.

It became chaos when Ruin and Tyson grabbed them and began to wrestle. I knew most people would probably hate the noise, but not this family. Smiles were on everyone’s faces. It took a good ten minutes to get them to settle. When they did, Dad came to the rescue.

“Why don’t the three of you go outside and play until it’s time to eat? Stay in the backyard. Later, we can go to the big playground.” They cheered and were out the door as soon as shoes and jackets were back on without even a goodbye.

As the quiet registered, I knew this was our chance. I glanced at Ruin. He nodded and then came to stand next to me. I was watching Ex and Skye, so I saw Executioner’s mouth twitch when he saw where Ruin was standing. Skye was busy making pancake batter.

“Hey, Baby Girl, I think someone has something to tell us,” Ex said to her.

Skye’s head came up, and she twisted to look at him. As she did, her eyes skimmed over Ruin and me. At that exact moment, not to be anything other than shocking, Ruin gripped me and leaned me over his arm before planting another soul-shattering kiss on me.

As I let myself go, I heard Skye shriek, “Oh my God!”

Ex’s booming laugh rang out. Ruin took his time before he stood me up and let go of my mouth. I swear, the man would have me tearing off my clothes in a second. I was breathless, and I knew my face was pink as I faced my sister and brother-in-law, thinking of Ruin’s kisses. Skye’s mouth was gaping. Executioner was smirking, and he winked at me before looking at Ruin.

“About goddamn time. If you didn’t tell her soon, I was gonna beat your ass and tell her myself. Glad you calmed down after last night. When did this happen? After you left church or this morning? Based on the way she let you kiss her and she didn’t scream or slap you, I take it she feels the same.”

Skye came tearing out from behind the island and stood in front of her mountain of a husband. Her hands landed on her hips. “Executioner, what went on last night in church that you didn’t tell me?” she demanded to know.

“Baby Girl, it was something your brother needed to handle, and he did. I couldn’t say anything until he took care of it. It seems he took exception to his buddy Konrad dating Desi, and he wanted to beat his ass. We put a stop to that but then left him to get his head on straight and to handle his shit. Congratulations. I see she didn’t run,” he joked.

“No, she didn’t, but I was sweating it. Dad, Mom, and Ty sent her to find me when she got home last night. We worked this much out. We love each other. The rest we have to discuss. I hate to ask, but could we not announce it to everyone until she and I work out the details?”

“What details? If you love each other, what is there to work out?” Skye demanded to know.

“Skye, remember you and me? We loved each other, but there were things we had to agree on and compromise on,” Executioner reminded her.

She rolled her eyes. From what I heard, it had been more complicated than that with them. Ex had no idea where she was, and when he accidentally found her after they had spent a night together, she refused to have anything to do with him. It wasn’t until after he discovered she was pregnant with Joshua that they began to work out their issues.

“A week ago, I asked Mom if she thought the two of you might be in love. She said maybe. Did you know then?” Skye asked Mom.

“I did, but Desi swore me to secrecy. She was convinced he didn’t love her. I guessed about both of them. I didn’t find out until last night that so had Omen or that he’d asked your brother, and Ruin admitted it. I know you have things to work on, but don’t take too long. I can’t wait to tell the rest of the club. However, they need to decide how to tell Shane.”

This led to a short debate on the best way to do it. Executioner and Skye thought there wouldn’t be anything to worry about. They knew how my son adored Ruin. I thought he might not either, but it changed our standing. Plus, I’d have to break it to him that we wouldn’t be moving in with Isaiah. He’d been warming up to the idea.

Thinking of Isaiah, I knew he’d have to be told not only that Ruin and I had cleared the air but that I wasn’t moving in after all. I knew he’d be happy for me. If it wasn’t for him and his encouragement to go out with Konrad, who knows how long it might’ve taken for it to come to the surface?

“Well, come give me a hug, Desi. And you too,” Skye demanded of both of us. After hugging her, I was gently hugged by Executioner. He was always careful to let me know when he was about to touch me. I appreciated it, even if with family, I no longer needed it.

That was the end of our announcement. We chatted about various things as we finished making breakfast, and the table was set. Calling in the kids, the guys helped them wash up and take their seats. They cheered when their kiddie table and chairs were brought in. They were folded up and put out of the way unless needed. Breakfast passed in a blur of laughter, talk, and good food. It was perfect.