Shattered World (Shattered #3)

Chapter Eighteen

W hen Murphy sat beside me on the couch, his arm wrapping tightly around my shoulders, I couldn’t contain the tears any longer. The loss of Mina hit me directly in the chest, my body crumpling as sobs wracked through me.

Murphy whispered soothing words in my ears, allowing me to fall apart. I knew with him there would never be any judgement. Too many times, he had been the one to give me strength when I was falling apart, and I had no idea how I would ever repay him.

The cushions shifted beneath me, and then Rainer’s warm palm was on my thigh. Looking at him through blurry eyes, he frowned, the lines between his brows prominent. He didn’t have the words that Murphy did, but I wish he knew that his presence alone was enough.

Through a choked sob, I caressed his cheek, needing to get the words out. The same as I had with Warner. “I love you, Rainer. I love you so much.”

His eyes watered at my confession, his hand covering mine on his face. “I love you, Less. Us against the world, remember?”

I nodded quickly, my heart aching for the love I felt and the loss that mingled in between. A sniffle sounded from behind me, and I turned to see the tears tracking down Murphy’s cheeks.

Staying silent, I squeezed his fingers, letting him know that I could also be his strength if he needed it.

“I held out hope. I thought she would show up. But, fuck, I lost my mom, didn’t I?” He finally cried out, his head falling against my shoulder and my heart broke for the boy I saw in his eyes, the one that just wanted his mom.

Rainer reached around me, placing a comforting hand on Murphy’s shoulder. “My parents will be with her until the end. I try to take comfort from that.”

Murphy nodded into my shoulder, his lips skating across my collarbone. Pressing my mouth against his head, I closed my eyes, reveling in the feel of his skin, and Rainer pressed against my side.

I knew the grief was moving my body, that those who experience loss wanted to remind themselves of all they still had, but I didn’t care. I deserved to embrace what could be my last moments on this earth.

Shifting my body, I moved further into Rainer’s side, my hand tracing up Murphy’s back until it tangled in his hair. His mouth continued its movement along my collarbone, biting gently against the skin.

When he licked a path up my neck, a soft moan left my lips, Rainer groaning. “Fuck, Less. Is this what you want?”

As he asked, he placed his palm against my stomach, his hand gliding under the material and up my skin, leaving warmth in its wake.

Locking my eyes with his, I nodded. “I want this. You. Both of you.”

My words were a jumbled mess, but they didn’t need any more than that. Murphy slid onto his back, Rainer positioning me on his lap so I was facing his friend, Rainer’s heat at my back. His lips bent to my ear, nibbling at the sensitive flesh. “You need to be quiet.”

Rainer shifted me slightly, Murphy gently grinding up against me, his cock already hard and ready.

“Show him exactly how you feel,” Rainer whispered in my ear, and I didn’t hesitate.

Locking my arms around Murphy’s neck, my lips were hurried as I moaned into his mouth, his lips meeting mine, movement for movement.

Murphy caught another moan with his mouth as Rainer’s hands slowly slid back under my shirt, feeling the soft curves of my hips and the plane of my stomach. His fingers inched higher, connecting with my breasts as Murphy bit down on my lip.

“You’re so damn beautiful,” Rainer mumbled as he bent forward, his hardness pressing against my back as he nipped at my neck.

Grinding my hips down against Murphy, needing some sort of friction, Rainer kneaded my breasts, tweaking my nipples as Murphy moved his mouth, trailing sloppy kisses against the skin of my neck.

In a mess of limbs and soft laughter, the three of us shed our clothing, Murphy laid out on his back, Rainer at our side as I seated myself above his lap. Languidly, Murphy gripped his cock and slowly I lowered myself all the way, my mouth opening on a silent moan as he filled me.

Thankfully, Rainer’s warm palm covered my mouth as a not so quiet moan bled from my lips, his hot mouth wrapping around my nipple. As Rainer continued to lathe my breast with attention, Murphy gripped my ass in his hands, moving me up and down his length.

My hips ground against him, chasing the friction, the pleasure building in my core and traveling up my spine. As my movements became sloppy, Murphy’s grip the only thing keeping me tethered, Rainer reached a hand between our bodies, his fingers finding my clit.

Rubbing the sensitive flesh, my muscles tightened, my thighs shaking as I came on Murphy, his hips thrusting several more times before he fell back against the cushions, a satisfied smile gracing his lips.

My body was tired but my mind was wired as Murphy sat up, pushing me onto my back, Rainer climbing on top of me. His cock was in his hand, hard and ready, as he pressed into me. He slipped inside easily, mine and Murphy’s release coating his cock as he slid into me.

My eyes squeezed shut as more pleasure rocked through me so soon, but then Murphy was there, tilting my chin up. “Watch what you do to us.”

My eyes shifted between Rainer and Murphy as Rainer took what he wanted from my body, Murphy’s hands finding every spare inch of skin they could, raking his mouth and hands up and down my flesh.

Every nerve ending was on fire, my body unable to handle the immense feeling wracking through me. And when another orgasm spread through my body, swifter than I thought possible, I reached for Murphy’s mouth, allowing him to muffle the sated groans that left me.

Rainer followed me over the edge seconds later, biting his hand as he groaned out his release. His body fell on top of mine, Murphy moving us to the side until he could squeeze onto the couch. We were all slick with sweat, our bodies sticking together, knowing smiles shared between the three of us.

The warmth of their bodies had me lulling in and out of sleep, both of them placing a soft kiss against my lips.

“Time for some sleep. I’ll wake you to dress before morning,” Rainer whispered, shuffling us around until he and Murphy were side by side, my body on top of theirs.

Sleep found me easily, only waking once in the middle of the night when I heard footsteps in the room. For a moment, I was nervous it was someone who should not see this, even though a blanket was thrown over our bodies, but then a dark stare met mine.

Warner’s gaze trailed over the naked expanse of my shoulders, eyeing the two men I was sandwiched between. A hint of jealousy creeped into his eyes but was quickly replaced by a heat that could only be described as unending lust. And in that moment, I knew that if we made it through this alive, I’d have these three men by my side through it all.