Starstruck (Heartstrings Duet #1)

30. nothing left to lose

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NOTHING LEFT TO LOSE

“BETWEEN THE RAINDROPS” BY LIFEHOUSE FT. NATASHA BEDINGFIELD

JUNE 14 7:26 AM

Lover Boy

Made it to Foxborough.

Trouble

How was the drive?

Long. Lonely. I’m exhausted.

Did you sleep?

Not a wink.

Get some rest. First show back tonight. You’re going to need it.

JUNE 15 1:39 AM

Lover Boy

Just got back to the hotel.

Trouble

How was it?

Felt good to be back out there. What are you still doing up?

Working. I’m glad it went well.

Goodnight, Lover Boy.

Sweet dreams, Trouble.

JUNE 17 11:29 AM

Lover Boy

How’s planning going?

Trouble

Good :) I’ve finalized the schedule, booked 3 vendors, approved some merch, and now I’m working on advertising. There’s been great buzz so far. It’s starting to feel real.

It is real, Lenny girl. You’re remarkable. I’m proud of you.

You’re sweet. I’m beginning to think this whole gentleman thing isn’t an act after all.

It’s never an act with you.

JUNE 18 12:46 PM

Trouble

How is it being back out on stage?

Lover Boy

Been great. I finally feel like myself again.

I’m happy for you.

First of a 6 show stretch tonight.

They’ll be amazing.

You’re amazing.

JUNE 19 4:15 PM

Lover Boy

Have you been writing?

Trouble

I’ve been trying.

That’s all you can do.

JUNE 21 3:02 AM

Lover Boy

Send nudes

JUNE 21 8:23 AM

Trouble

Grow up

JUNE 21 12:49 PM

Lover Boy

Make me.

Oh wait, you already do ;)

Trouble

I find it hard to believe you’re in your thirties sometimes.

I’ve been spending too much time around Levi

Yeah. That’s it.

What can I say? I haven’t had sex in a week

And whose fault is that?

I may have made the rule, but it’s still your fault. No one would compare to you, Trouble.

Something tells me you’ll survive.

JUNE 23 2:18 PM

Trouble

Lilia Love cancelled. Family emergency.

Lover Boy

Well with a name like that, what did you expect?

Not funny. I don’t have time to find someone new. So now I have to see if there’s someone who can make their set longer. I could extend one of the new signs but then I don’t want the others to feel left out. But doing that will be easier than extending two forty-five-minute sets. I’m stuck.

First, take a deep breath. You’re spiralling, my little people-pleaser.

Second, none of the new signs will care if they aren’t chosen—I guarantee they’re all just happy to be performing at all. So pick the person who’s been at the label the longest. Or pick whoever the hell you feel like picking. It’s your show, Lennon. You can do whatever you want.

Also, it was a little funny.

Shut up.

But thank you.

JUNE 24 9:27 AM

Trouble

Two months.

Lover Boy

Counting down the days until you’re free of me, Lenny girl?

Yeah. Something like that.

JUNE 25 2:44 AM

Lover Boy

I miss you.

JUNE 25 8:53 AM

Trouble

Was that a drunk text?

Lover Boy

No.

Okay. Yes. But I meant it.

Oh.

I miss you.

You shouldn’t.

You saying you don’t miss me, Trouble?

Yes.

Liar.

JUNE 26 11:14 AM

Lover Boy

Hi, Trouble.

Trouble

Hi, Lover Boy.

Do you miss me now?

Still no.

JUNE 28 10:03 AM

Lover Boy

On the bus to Pittsburgh.

How’s concert planning going?

Trouble

Really good. Tickets go on sale at noon today.

I’m nervous.

It’s going to sell out, Lenny girl. You’ve got me headlining ;)

Still second-guessing that decision. You better make it worth the headache.

Ouch, Trouble.

I love it when you’re mean to me.

Shut up.

JUNE 28 9:14 PM

Trouble

We hit 3 million.

Lover Boy

I told you so.

Shut up.

But thank you.

What for?

For being worth it.

Anything for you, Trouble.

JUNE 29 1:19 AM

Lover Boy

Three weeks till I’m done.

Trouble

I know.

Excited to see me, Trouble?

In your dreams, Lover Boy.

JULY 1 12:01 PM

Lover Boy

Say happy birthday to Canada for me

Trouble

Canada says tell it yourself

Wish I could. Any plans today?

Working. No days off in the music business. But you know that.

Do I ever.

JULY 3 2:28 AM

Trouble

Are you awake?

Lover Boy

Yes.

Are you okay?

I’m fine. Just thinking.

What are you thinking about?

My parents. The concert.

You.

It’ll be great. They would be proud of you. I know I am.

And I’m thinking about you too.

I never stop.

JULY 5 11:35 AM

Lover Boy

What’s your favourite flower?

Wait, let me guess. Roses? You seem like a roses girl.

Trouble

I don’t really have one. Roses are nice. Why?

Wouldn’t you like to know?

That’s…ominous.

You’ll see soon enough, Lenny girl.