The Fallen Ones (Holloway University #1)

21. Caleb

Chapter 21

Caleb

A s I lay in bed I thought about my visit to Lily earlier in the day. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I felt like the biggest asshole. I’d sat and listened to her worries, wiped tears from her eyes, and played out my role as her best friend all while knowing I was part of the reason for her sadness.

The secret that I’d been one of the masked guys killed me. Even more so hearing her say she wanted to do it again.

I didn’t know if I could keep lying to her.

I didn’t know if I should tell Jace and Damien.

I didn’t know what the fuck I was supposed to do.

But one thing I did know was that I enjoyed being with Lily more than anything in the world. Being intimate with her was something I’d always wanted. Knowing it was possible to have her again and again as one of the masked men was like a knife twisting in my gut.

I grabbed my phone from my bedside table and scrolled to my gallery. The photo Lily sent to me in her Halloween red devil dress had me mesmerized all over again.

I wanted her.

But I knew I couldn’t have her alone. The only way I’d get to be her masked man again was if there were three of us. We’d made that stupid pact. Now if any of us tried to keep Lily for ourselves the others would spill and we’d all lose her.

As I stared at her photo I found myself with my cock in my hand. I started stroking. Faster. Harder. I tightened my grip and imagined her tight pussy clenched hold of me all over again.

I wanted so badly to be able to crush her with my entire body weight so she couldn’t move as she moaned out my name over and over, her nails deep in my flesh as she clung to me.

The memory of kissing her soft lips as my dick was buried deep inside her wet pussy sent me over the edge and I came hard.

Every last drop of come was for my Lil bit.

With a hand full of come, I headed to my bathroom to clean myself. I soon stood beneath the heat of the water and washed away my sins. My cock stiffened as the image of Lily lying naked being pleasured from every angle played out in my mind.

It was a night I’d never forget.

The way I’d pushed my dick into her mouth. How she’d sucked it as if she’d done it a dozen times before.

How perfect she was.

I stroked myself faster and faster until I came again.

I knew I was torturing myself.

And I knew if I wanted her again I needed to speak to Jace and Damien.

That night I went to sleep with so much weighing on my mind.

The next day, I headed toward the football field determined to catch Jace before his first training session. I knew he had a big game against the Chi State coming up, and I knew Damien would likely turn up, too. We hadn’t spoken since our night with Lily. The guys had texted me, but I refused to reply since the only text I’d had from Lil bit when I asked how she was doing, was a thumbs up. I wasn’t sure if we’d destroyed her completely so I had nothing to say to the two of them. But since hearing Lily say she wanted to do it again with the three of us, I knew I needed to speak to both of them, whether I liked it or not.

Sighing, I pulled my phone out and shot off a message to our group chat.

Caleb: I’m at the football field. Meet me.

Jace: This better be important

Caleb: It’s about Lily.

Jace: Why didn’t you say that?

I rolled my eyes at his reply.

Caleb: What other reason would I have for messaging you?

Damien: What’s going on with my baby little sister?

I sneered as I read Damien’s message. I hated he called her his sister. That ship had sailed long ago. He needed to let it go. Judging by the way he fucked her that night, I knew that wasn’t happening anytime soon.

Caleb: You two coming or not?

Jace: Yeah.

Damien: Be there in five.

I waited, hoping they’d get here quickly. Standing around the way I was made me feel like a weirdo since I didn’t spend a lot of spare time hanging out doing football shit.

Damien came into my line of sight five long minutes later, but he wasn’t alone. His arm was wrapped around a blonde. She kissed his cheek and skipped away as he continued to pace over to me.

“Caleb Watts finally makes contact,” Damien said as he ran his fingers through his dark, tousled hair, a smirk on his face.

“What the fuck man?” I couldn’t hide how infuriated seeing him with another girl made me.

I should’ve been happy that he’d moved on and found some other girl to focus on, but I wasn't. I felt betrayed on Lily’s behalf. But it also made me question if our pact was over, and with it my chance to be with Lily again.

“What’s your problem?” he asked, completely oblivious.

“ You. You’re a fucking dick. Lily’s skipped school and been at home worrying about what happened between the four of us and you’re already getting your dick wet elsewhere!” I snapped and pushed hard against his chest.

“Whoa, calm the fuck down, Watts.” He pushed me back, the smirk slipping from his face as a sneer took over.

“What’s going on?” Jace rushed over to us, his voice laced with confusion.

“This asshole is already getting his dick wet in some other chick and has completely forgotten about Lily,” I replied in frustration, forgetting where we were.

“Caleb, man. Quiet down,” Jace snarled before he looked to Damien. “Is it true?”

“Fuck, no. If Watts would have just waited a second I’d have explained that she’s Lance Corgan’s sister. He’s a good friend of mine,” Damien replied and straightened his shirt. “Her name is Jenna. She’s a freshman.”

It still didn’t make sense why she’d kissed him on the cheek. I didn’t trust that prick. I didn’t trust either of them. I hesitated and wondered if I should just tell them Lily didn’t want to see any of us again as the masked strangers.

We had her for the night, maybe that should be it.

Over.

Done.

We didn’t need to keep our pact any longer. We could go back to how things were before and forget that night ever happened.

The thought of things going back to the way they were filled me with dread.

Did I really want that?

To go back to just being friends with Lily?

It wasn’t like we were more than friends, but the thought I’d never have like that again sent shards of ice through my body, making me sick.

“Caleb.” Jace raised his voice and dragged me from my overthinking.

“Huh, what?” I asked, confused. I hadn’t paid attention to whatever the two of them had been saying about Jenna.

“What did Lily say?” Jace asked, his voice low with worry.

“She–” I paused for a moment.

Do I tell them the truth and keep this going or lie in an effort to end it all?

“Fucking spit it out, man. We don’t have all day,” Damien said, his eyes wide. “You said she’d been worrying.”

Was he genuinely concerned for Lily?

“Come on, man. We all care about her. We know you’ve spoken to her. Just tell us what she said.” Jace pressed me for an answer.

“She’s worried about how it made her feel. About who the guys were. She has no idea it was the three of us.” I finally told them.

“Does she… regret it?” Damien looked down at the ground and toed at a lump of dirt on the grass.

A moment of silence followed as I contemplated my answer. It killed me to admit to myself that she enjoyed all three of us, let alone admit it to the two of them.

“Caleb?” Jace cut into the silent tension.

“No. She doesn’t regret it. She was worried about what kind of girl it made her,” I replied with a sigh.

“She was amazing. Perfect. You told her that right?” Damien asked, looking at me.

“I couldn’t tell her that, dumbass,” I shot back.

The idea of him forgetting Lily and hooking up with Jenna still had me feeling irritated. He could deny it all he wanted. I knew Damien, and I knew what I’d seen.

“No. I meant you reassured her that there was nothing wrong with her having fun with three dudes,” Damien volleyed back.

“Yeah, of course.”

“And how’d she take it?” Jace asked.

“She admitted she wanted to do it again.” The words trailed off my tongue without the caution I’d secretly felt in my gut.

“Again?” Damien’s eyes lit up with excitement.

I could almost see the wild thoughts crashing into one another in his mind.

A knot of unease formed in my stomach. “Yeah.”

Jace inched closer, looked at me and then at Damien. “I’m down if you two are.”

“Fuck, yeah. I want her sweet little ass next time. I never did get to fully explore it.” Damien licked his lips.

“Do you have to talk about her like that?” I bit out, disgusted at what a pig he was.

Damien really got under my skin.

“Shut the fuck up, Watts. Don’t act like you’re some kind of saint in all of this. You fucked her just as rough and raw as the two of us.” He shot back. “If I remember correctly, you buried that big cock into her pussy right along with the rest of us when she was passed the fuck out. Not only did I watch you come inside her, I fucked into the mess you made too, so take your fucking halo off.”

I grunted at his words. Damien was right. I was just the as bad as the two of them, if not worse, since Lily trusted me with her darkest secret, oblivious to the fact I was one of the guys she wanted to see again.

“I’m not doing it. You can go fuck yourself.” I directed my anger toward Damien.

“You’re really going to deny our girl what she wants because you’re nothing but a pussy?” Damien snarled and shoved into me.

“You don’t deserve her. You didn’t deserve to have her before and you don’t get to have her again, asshole!” I pushed him away from me.

“You two are going to attract attention. How about everyone calms down and we meet up later to discuss it properly.” Jace moved to stand between us. “I get off from training at seven, meet me at Giano’s at eight. Agreed?”

“Fine,” I replied.

“Sure.” Damien backed away from me. “You better be there, Watts.” He shoved his way past me and headed toward the art building.

Fucking asshole.

“I know it seems fucked up, but she wants it, Caleb. She told you as much. She fucking showed us. You saw the way she came. Just…relax, man.”

“I don’t want to lose her,” I admitted fiercely.

A pain expression crossed his face. “I get it. We won’t. Just… think about it all, OK?”

I nodded as he clapped me on the shoulder and walked to the locker rooms. Sighing, I wandered back to the main campus, my mind alive with worries.

I had hours to kill and mull over my decision before I met back up with Jace and Damien. I just needed to make sure I avoided Lily until then. One look from her and I’d be even more confused about what to do.