Thor (Sinful Warriors MC #4)

Chapter 15

Chapter Fifteen

MADISON

M y heart beats a thousand miles a minute. I can’t believe what I just saw and heard. That woman was way too comfortable with Jonah. She didn’t care that a room full of people heard her say she wanted him to use ropes on her. That’s not the man I know. I’m not disgusted that that’s what he’s into but I don’t like the idea of knowing he’s been intimate with other women.

I knew there was no way in hell that Jonah has lived that past decade as a monk. I just wasn’t prepared to hear it. Now that I think about it, I’ve seen a group of women who dress just like her around the clubhouse. I had so much going on, I didn’t give it a second thought. Now I’m wondering if he’s slept with every one of them.

I hear the ladies running after me, begging me to stop. I spot a picnic table and take a seat. As much as I want to just roll up in a ball and cry my eyes out, I need to talk to someone about this. Nobody could understand this more than them. The girls join me at the table with sorrowful eyes.

“Madison, I know that looked really bad, but it’s not what you think. We literally had just left Church and Diamond threw herself at him. You walked through the door seconds later,” Sara tells me.

“He’s slept with her. Hasn’t he?” I ask them.

Everyone is quiet and their silence is all the confirmation I need. My tears spill over, and Bianca and Sophia wrap an arm around me.

“I know this is a lot to take in, but he doesn’t want any of them. Just you,” Bianca says.

“How am I supposed to be okay with knowing he slept with her and probably every one of those women? Why are they even here?” I spat angrily.

“They’re called club bunnies. They’re here to sleep with the guys.”

I turned to Cara in shock and outrage. “How the hell are you all okay with your men sleeping with those women?”

Cara’s eyes flash with anger before she blinks it away. “Our men haven’t slept with any of them since we came into their lives. Not one of them even looks their way anymore.”

“And you’re okay with being around a group of women who have been with your man?”

“Everyone is different, Madison. Me, personally, I couldn’t care less. My man is sexy as hell. I would be a fool to think he didn’t have a past before me. That doesn’t matter to me. What matters is everything that transpired once I was in his life. Yes, those women have been with him, but I have something they could never get. No matter how hard they tried.”

“What’s that?”

“His heart.” Cara smiles.

Wow. I didn’t think of it that way. She’s right. The ladies are nodding at her with small smiles. It’s still a tough pill to swallow and I personally don’t know if I can handle it. I don’t want to see women who know what he looks like without clothes. They’ve had a piece of him.

When I hear footsteps approaching, I turn to see Jonah standing a few feet from the table. The ladies get up and head back inside the clubhouse. Jonah looks hesitant to come any closer. I nod, letting him know it's okay. He takes the seat next to me and I gaze into his sky-blue eyes. I can see the fear swirling in them.

“Maddy—” he starts, but I cut him off.

“Jonah, I didn’t expect you to have been celibate all these years, but I don’t think I can be around those women every day. As much as this hurts, I need some time. I’m not saying it’s over. I just need some time to think.”

Jonah gives me a shaky nod before lowering his gaze to the table. I kiss his cheek and head back to Cara’s place. Each step I take, my heart rips in two. I fell so hard for him again. My emotions are all over the place and I don’t know how I truly feel about this. Only time will tell. It feels like the end for me and Jonah, and that’s not a reality I’m willing to face right now.

It’s my fifth day here at the hospital and I love it. As much as I miss Jonah, working fills me with joy. I love helping people. It’s a great distraction from my heartache. I haven’t been back to the clubhouse. It’s too hard. I also haven’t seen Jonah. I have four brothers escort me to work every day, including Doc. The guys told me as much as it’s killing Jonah, he’s giving me my space. I don’t want to hurt him, but this world is foreign to me.

Jonah has always had women after him. That’s nothing new. But back then, I didn’t have to deal with the fact that any of them had been with him. It was only me. Each day that goes by, my heart pleads for me to go back to him. I feel incomplete. I just don’t know what to do.

Approaching the nurses’ station, I take a seat. Doc walks up to me with a chart. “Madison, you have a patient in Room 14. Alice Langley. Possible broken arm, split lip, and a gash on her forehead. I suspect domestic violence so tread lightly, okay?”

“Okay.” I grab the clipboard and advance toward the room. When I enter, there’s a police officer standing over her. The exchange looks heated. I clear my throat to gain their attention. Alice’s eyes fall to her lap. The officer folds his arms across his chest, watching me with an unimpressed expression.

“Hi, Mrs. Langley. My name is Madison. I’m your RN today. From your charts I see you might have possibly broken your arm. How did that happen?”

Alice’s eyes never leave her lap. “You don’t need to know anything,” the officer sneers. “Just get her checked out.” His raised voice causes Alice to jump, and her heart monitor speeds up.

“Officer, I’m going to need you to leave so I can speak with my patient.”

“She’s my wife! I’m not going anywhere. Just do your job!”

“With all due respect, Officer Langley, asking how the injuries occurred is my job. We have to make sure?—”

“Make sure what?” he sneers.

Alice closes her eyes and her breathing picks up more. She’s on the verge of a panic attack. Doc comes barreling through the door, headed straight for Alice. “What’s going on in here? Alice, I need you to calm down. Your heart rate is spiking to a dangerous level.”

Alice nods shakily. Doc makes a move to touch her and the officer snaps, “Don’t touch her. I specifically told them I wanted only women in here. Have her do whatever it is she needs to do to fix her up so we can leave.”

“Alice, are you okay? If you’re more comfortable speaking alone, we can do that.”

The officer takes a step around the bed toward me. Doc swiftly places himself in between us. His face is hard as stone as he stares Officer Langley down, his eyes full of warning. Officer Langley had better stand down.

Alices whispers, breaking the tension in the room. When I look down at her, her eyes are pleading with me. “I’m fine. I fell down the stairs and that’s how I hurt myself. I just want to get this over with so I can go home.”

I get ready to protest but Doc shakes his head and guides me out of the room. As soon as there’s a little distance between us and the room, I turn to Doc. “He’s beating her!”

“I know. But unfortunately, we can’t do anything about it unless she makes a statement.”

“She’s terrified of him. She needs help!” I say frantically. This isn’t my first DV case, but they are never easy. I wish there was more we could do, but until the patient confirms what we already know, there isn’t much we can do. And he’s a damn officer. That only adds fuel to the fire. My emotions get the better of me and tears spill over my cheeks.

No one should live like that. I rush to the nearest bathroom and try to get myself together. Doc is waiting for me when I walk out. “I had another nurse take over for you. I don’t think you’re incapable, but her husband is already agitated with you and I don’t want things to escalate.”

I nod and go back to the nurses’ station. Later, Alice leaves and all I see is a broken woman. When her eyes connect with mine, she gives me a small smile. Her husband notices and he wraps his hand on the back of her neck possessively and squeezes until she winces. I’ve never been a violent person, but I really want to punch him in the face.

As the day continues, no matter how much I try to calm down, I can’t. Everyone tries to comfort me, but they aren’t who I want. I want Jonah. That realization is everything I need.

I love him.

No matter what hurdles may come our way, I will always want him. He’s my one and I can’t live without him.

The ride home is a blur. My thoughts are fully on Jonah. I’m going to take this leap and not live in fear. If I walked away from Jonah because of things he did when we weren’t together, I would regret it. I know I would. No relationship is perfect. They’re going to have their ups and downs but as long as I have Jonah by my side, the rest doesn’t matter.

When I pull through the gate, I head for the clubhouse and not Cara’s. Exiting my car, I see all eyes are on me. I arrow straight inside and make quick steps to Jonah’s room. Knocking on his door, I stand there, anxiously waiting. I raise my hand to knock again just as the door swings open. Jonah stands there looking worse for wear.

His eyes have darks circles under them and they’re filled with sadness. My heart sinks. I did this to him. At the time I had to, but now I regret it. Jonah’s eyebrows raise to his hairline when his eyes land on me. I don’t even second-guess my next move. Rising on my toes, I bring my lips to his as I push him inside.