Aching for His Discretion (The Discretion Dynasty #1)

49. Teegan

Chapter forty-nine

Teegan

T he car ride was silent. Levi’s red knuckles gripped the steering wheel angrily as he drove. His jaw clenched every so often, and he ran his hands through his hair at least five times. The waiter was thankfully alive, but he was rushed to the hospital after the manager apologized to us for the behavior of his staff.

The manager apologized to us. Right… My brain was still having trouble processing.

Not only that, but I was trying to calm the dirty thoughts in my mind. My leg was crossed to alleviate the neediness between my legs, but I was so confused. He almost murdered a man, and for some sick and twisted reason… he had never been so possessive, dominating, protective, or sexy than tonight. My cheeks went red as I tried to get rid of my sinful thoughts. I need a cold shower.

The car stopped on the side of the road, and I looked around, noticing it wasn’t my apartment. The area we were in was quiet, with a few buildings that were closed and only a street light or two.

He parked the car and sighed. “Teegan, I’m sorry,” he said.

I felt my legs tighten slightly. Snap out of it, snap out of it.

“I fucking lost it in there… and I’m sorry if I scared you or made you feel uncomfortable. If you need me out of your life after this, I wouldn’t even blame you,” he said, defeated, while rubbing his temples.

I rubbed my clammy hands over my dress. “Levi, I’m sorry,” I began, and he remained silent, allowing me to continue.

“I… I’m sorry for making you change so much about yourself just to be with me… for making you feel unwanted or not enough. For running away… for everything . I’m happy you came to recognize your faults and got professional help with them, but I’m sorry for leaving you to work on them by yourself and not being there to help you,” I replied softly.

He shushed me as he caressed my face.

“No, Teegan… This time apart was necessary for both of us. We needed to learn ourselves before we were able to give it up to one another. I just needed to work on myself more, and I… I ruined it tonight. I’m truly sorry, Tesoro.”

Shaking my head, I gave him a small smile.

“I know you are, Levi, and I forgive you. We’ll keep working on ourselves together. We don’t have to do it alone anymore,” I whispered.

He placed a passionate kiss on my lips as I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. Feeling the pool still between my thighs, I moved over the center console, still kissing him as he pushed his seat back, helping me straddle his thighs.

I pulled him closer as I felt my hips involuntarily move. I needed him… I needed him more than the air. I needed him to breathe. I needed him to soothe the ache he’d left and that I tried to ignore with all of my being.

He grabbed my hips and pulled away as I was sure he could feel my heat. What has gotten into me?

“Tesoro,” he muttered in slight shock, and I bit my lip as I felt a feeling of embarrassment come over me.

However, his eyes went dark as a wave of lust filled them. He unbuttoned his pants, and before I could even think, my panties were pushed to the side, and I was sinking down on his length. I let out a guttural moan as he slid in at a slow but hard pace as he looked at me.

“You’re so fucking wet,” he whispered, and I held onto him as he slammed his hips into me. I immediately felt full, an expression of pain and pleasure etched into my features as he buried himself deep inside of me.

“This what you wanted? I almost fucking killed someone over you, and you wet your panties like a little slut, hmm,” he whispered, and I felt myself gush at his words.

My whimpers grew as he went fast, hitting every spot only he could. If it wasn’t so deliciously good, it would’ve felt unbearable, the way he used me and gripped my hips to sink himself even deeper into my heat.

“Fuck, I already corrupted you. My little slut. Come on, let me fill your little pussy with my cock. I know it’s been a while, hmm?” he whispered again as I felt my release coming quickly, as it always did with him. Hiding my face in his neck, he laughed as I came… hard. My legs involuntarily shook as he continued brutally as if he was just as starved and deprived of me as I was of him.

“There it is. Keep going. Good girl, oh, you feel so fucking good,” he groaned, and I shuddered as he sped up his pace, not letting me come down from my high at all.

“Feels so full,” I whispered, and he tsked as he went even deeper, causing me to grab his shoulder as I bit my lip again.

“No breaks, Tesoro… It’s okay, baby. You like it like this, remember? You like when I sink my cock into that little pussy and fucking breed you, hmm? Just fucking take it like a good little girl,” he ordered, and I nodded quickly as my legs shook. He slammed his hips even harder, probably on the verge of bruising me.

My face was entirely red as I realized how much I missed this feeling—the feeling of being devoured, cherished, used. .. for his pleasure and mine. It was all too amazing.

I placed my hands on his chest as my head fell back, my release coming in full force.

He leaned his head back as he used me to find his own, and tears fell from my eyes as he brutally entered me while he squeezed my waist in his hands. Eventually, he groaned loudly, entering me one final time before releasing inside of me.

We breathed heavily as silence filled the air. I hated to admit it, but I loved every single moment of our intimacy. It was exciting, dangerous, exhilarating… everything I loved about Levi himself. He took it too far most of the time, but I didn’t fall in love with a man who was cautious.

I fell in love with a man who was reckless and in love with me from the moment he laid his eyes on me. A man who looked at me with the utmost admiration and possessiveness. A man who quite literally would do anything and everything for me.

“Tesoro...” he said, and I softly ran my hands through his hair as he waited for me to speak. But what could I say?

“Levi,” was all I whispered, and he leaned his head against the headrest as he ran his hand up and down my back.

“That was… something,” he muttered, and I blushed in embarrassment as I noticed his pants had become increasingly soaked and the windows of the car were slowly fogging up.

“It was, wasn’t it,” I responded softly, and he gazed at me lovingly as he pushed a fallen hair behind my ear. Slowly, I lifted my hips to separate from him, but I bit my lip as he placed his hands on my waist to stop me from doing so. Gradually, he sunk back into me, and I shuddered once again as he hummed in contentment.

“We have to leave soon,” I whispered, feeling him pulse inside of me, and he nodded without moving as he rubbed his hand over my waist. He knew we needed to get going, but I could sense he didn’t quite want to leave yet.

Deciding not to push any further, I did my best to ignore my throbbing legs as I brought him closer to me. Laying his head on my chest, I ran my hand through his hair again, and he sighed.

“I just want to hold you,” he muttered, and a smile came to my face as I caressed the side of his face. He seemed so relieved, so at peace… Who was I to take that away from him?

It was the following day, and I found myself waking up in bed as Levi lay beside me, holding me close to him by my waist. I didn’t want to wake him or bother him, but I had to get ready for my shift at the hospital.

Checking my phone, I saw a small list of things I had to do for my floor, courtesy of Dr. Lombardi sending it to me this morning when he got into the office.

Getting back home last night was just as eventful as our time spent in the car… the soreness between my legs reminded me constantly. As I went to sit up, Levi brought me closer to him, causing me to let out a small giggle.

“I have to get ready for work,” I whispered, and he hummed as he placed a few kisses on my neck. It was like a switch went off in our relationship within the last twenty-four hours. I was getting déjà vu from when we were together a few years ago. The same sense of warmth and comfort filled my chest.

Reluctantly, he let me go and watched as I stood with a blush on my face as I rushed to the bathroom, naked on the cold floor. I could hear his subtle laugh from behind the bathroom door, and I turned on the shower to get clean.

As I stepped in the shower, I sighed as the bathroom door opened and Levi walked in. He slowly stepped into the shower behind me, and I looked up at him.

“No funny business, Mister.” I glared, and he simply leaned his head on my shoulder as he hugged me from behind.

I hid my smile as I washed my body and his.

“Thank you, Tesoro,” he whispered after some time, and I didn’t respond, only because I didn’t really know what to say. But I knew he was thanking me for giving him another chance, for letting him back in, for being there for him once again.

There was still a part of me, however, a very small part of me that learned to be cautious, to be wary of his manipulative nature and to trust that he has changed but to be aware that it may not have been for long as last night’s events indicated that very fact. Nonetheless, I pushed the thoughts away as I leaned over to kiss his cheek while I smiled softly.