Bonded Beyond Regret (Mated to the Monster: Season 2)

CHAPTER 13

SAMUEL

The knock on my office door combined with the light scent of wildflowers and sunshine have me sitting up straighter in my chair. What a welcome distraction from the worst part of being Alpha. Of course with so many people counting on me, there has to be paperwork, but does there have to be so much?

“Come in, little warrior,” I call out.

The door opens slowly, and my female’s face pops around it. She’s not smiling at me, but that doesn’t make her any less beautiful. I swear the more time I spend with Nyx, the deeper I fall for her.

Is this how it is for humans? Before my mate bond turned out so wrong, I felt sorry for humans because they had to try their luck with their partners. They didn’t have the mate bond working in their favor.

Now, I’m not sure who has it better. Sure, for the shifters whose mate bond is between two people who make each other better, it can be magical. But when it is not? It’s disastrous.

“Nyx,” I growl her name, my wolf not liking her so far away or the timid look on her face.

When she steps into the room, I growl again, but this time it’s because she’s still wearing her outfit from training. She took it easy today with training because she was working with Marlene and focusing on strengthening her muscles and stamina. There was no sparring, and I don’t think my female even worked up a sweat.

That doesn’t mean she wasn’t glowing because she was. The pride she felt for the progress Marlene has been making was written all over her face.

“Our Luna,” my wolf sighs, content to have our female in our office.

Nyx comes closer with a box in her hands. She’s holding it out in front of her like some sort of offering. The scent of chocolate chip cookies, my favorite, make my mouth water, but it’s her scent that my wolf is soaking up like a lovesick fiend.

“You’re doing the same thing,” he grumbles.

“Never said that I wasn’t,” I shoot back at him.

I narrow my eyes as Nyx sinks down into a chair on the other side of my desk. That’s not going to fly with me. The need to have her closer is riding me hard.

After standing up quickly, I stalk toward my woman. Her eyes widen and she lets out a squeak of surprise when I pick her up and cradle her against my chest. The way she melts against me and rests her head on my shoulder has me puffing up my chest.

“Our female is so sweet,” my wolf shakes out his fur in my mind. “Fits in our arms perfectly,” he muses while his fur puffs up.

I nuzzle against the top of her head as I sit down on the couch in my office and position her on my lap. When she’s this close to me, I have to touch her. It’s a need in me and something I’ve never experienced like this, not even with Kathy. Sure, we had the bond, but it was never pure, and it wound through her evil.

“You make it difficult to come in here and have a serious conversation,” Nyx’s words are almost slurred as her body completely relaxes against mine.

“Is that why you brought cookies? Trying to butter me up?” My voice is teasing because I want a smile from her.

I know she has something on her mind. She’s been thinking hard and preoccupied with her thoughts—or maybe her doubts—in the last few days. I think it might have something to do with whatever she talked to Serenity about, but I haven’t pushed her to tell me yet.

It was obvious that she needed a little time to think through whatever is bothering her. As much as I wanted her to talk to me, I also want to give her whatever she needs.

“They were coming out of the oven in the kitchen, and I know they’re your favorite.” She looks up at me with a small smile on her face.

Even though I want to kiss her until we’re panting messes, I know now is not the time. Still, I can’t help myself from kissing her forehead. “Thank you,” I murmur against her skin.

She sighs and plays with the hair at the base of my neck. Her touch has pleasure streaking up and down my back. I love her hands on me. I love holding her like this. I just love her.

Which means that whatever is bothering her, we’ll tackle. Together. Even if she doesn’t know it yet.

“What are we doing, Samuel?”

I jerk slightly, not expecting that question. Even though I know it shouldn’t, her question pisses me off. I thought I had been showing her exactly what we’re doing. Maybe I was wrong.

“Calm down. You know our female is scared after losing her fated,” my wolf growls, the warning to me clear. “We will listen, and we will help her understand what she means to us. And if she needs us to do that over and over then we will.”

“I want you, Nyx, and only you.” She looks up at me, her brown eyes a little sad which guts me. The only consolation is that I don’t see the same pain in her eyes that I saw when she first arrived. It feels like a victory. “I want this to be forever.” I take a deep breath and let it out slowly. “We won’t have another chance at a fated bond. I don’t miss my mate, but I know you miss yours.”

She opens her mouth, but I shake my head. Not because I don’t want to hear whatever she’s thinking, but because she needs to hear me out. “It’s okay that you miss him,” I reassure him. I’m glad he was in your life and able to love you and give you Aisley. I’m grateful to him because of that.”

Her eyes glisten and I know she’s fighting back tears. “You deserve someone better than a she-wolf who misses her dead mate.”

“Do not speak about the woman I love like that,” I growl the words, the warning clear.

She freezes and her eyes round and go wide as her mouth opens and closes. “I, um, you,” she stutters before shaking her head, “I mean, what?”

I grin at the precious woman in my arms and pull her even tighter against me. “You heard me. It might be fast, and you might not feel the same way, but I don’t care. I love you. You are a female worthy of love, and it is so damn easy to love you. You are everything I have ever wanted in a mate but have never had before. I know how lucky I am that you have give me so much of your time and I will never take you for granted.”

“I’m scared,” she whispers.

My heart fucking melts for this woman. I’ve seen her strength. I’ve seen her pain. I’ve seen her struggle. I’ve seen her vulnerability.

Every facet of her is perfect and all her.

“It’s okay to be scared. I’m scared too,” I admit. “I’m not scared of loving you, but you might wake up one day and realize you could do far better than me.”

She scoffs, “Better than an Alpha who had devoted himself and his pack to help wolves who need it the most? Who accepts outcasts? Who gives homes to those who don’t know where else to go? Who gives hope to those who aren’t sure how to keep going for another day? Who claims a little girl who isn’t is blood, but loves her like she is? There isn’t another male who is better than you,” her voice is strong and sure.

I bury my face in the crook of her neck and nuzzle her there. “I love it when you get all fierce on me,” my voice is a seductive purr.

I can’t be blamed for how my cock hardens in response to the way my female defends me. When she shifts on my lap, I know it’s because she can feel what she does to me. I clench my jaw and try to focus, but the way her sweet ass teases my dick is not helping matters.

“I can’t be the pack’s Luna,” she blurts before her face goes bright red.

With my eyes narrowed at her, I stand up and start to stride out of my office. She clings tightly to me as I make my way up to the Alpha suite. I don’t say a word; fuck, I barely breathe.

As I lay her down on the bed which I already consider to be ours, I follow her down, my larger body covering hers and holding her in place. I can feel her hardened nipples against my chest and it’s distracting as fuck.

“You already are this pack’s Luna, Nyx,” I grit out through my teeth. She blinks up at me, surprised by my words and how deeply I know them to be true. “You can deny it all you want, that’s fine, but I know it’s true. You put the members of this pack first every single day. Have you not noticed the way pack members flock to you? They come to you for help and for comfort. They seek you out and bask in the attention you give them. Being the Luna is more than a title, it’s a calling, one that you have already answered because you are already providing what this pack needs from their Luna.”

She sounds bewildered, “I’m Waning Moon’s Luna?”

I grin as I watch her mind mulling over my words. I know I’m right and she does too even if she hasn’t been willing to see it yet.

“Holy shit,” she breathes out and tears spring from her eyes.

I lean down and kiss her softly, needing to feel her lips against mine. “I know it’s scary, but it’s already too late to go back now, little warrior. You’re mine and I’m yours. You are this pack’s Luna, and they need you just as much as Aisley and I need you. The only thing you need to do is accept it.”

Nyx’s arms wrap around my neck, and she pulls me closer before taking my mouth in a kiss filled with passionate determination. I can taste her need on my tongue, and I groan as my cock throbs against her pussy. The heat coming off her is scorching and making it more difficult to keep ahold of my control.

Her legs wrap around my waist and her feet hook around my thighs to hold me in place. “Please,” she pants against my lips, “Samuel. I need you.”

I jerk back in surprise and stare down at my woman. I take her in and study every single fucking inch of her expressive face. I don’t see any doubt there, but I don’t want to move too fast for her. It would kill me to have her, only for her to regret it.

“I’ll still be afraid sometimes, but you’re right. You’re mine and I’m yours. I want you to make me yours. I don’t want to wait any more.”

“Fuck,” I bark.

My movements become a blur as I pull and tug our clothing off and fabric goes flying around the room. I don’t give a fuck where things land, not when my female needs me.

The moment she’s naked underneath me, I can smell her arousal, and it makes my gums tingle with the need to mark her. I don’t think she’s ready for that, but I sure as hell am going to make my woman scream and fall apart in pleasure.

I give her more of my weight, my hips resting between her own. The way her body cradles me is fucking perfect and has pre-cum dripping from the tip of my cock. My length slides between her slick pussy lips and against her clit.

When her back arches, I lean down and take one of her nipples into my mouth. My name on her lips as it becomes a chant is almost more than I can take.

“Samuel,” there’s a demand in her voice, “If you don’t slide inside of me and fuck me until my eyes cross and my vision goes blurry then we’re going to have problems.”

“So demanding, my female,” I grunt after letting go of her nipple with a pop.

I pull my hips back as I wrap my lips around her other nipple. My cock notches at her entrance and I bite down as I thrust inside of her to the hilt.

Nyx screams, her back bowing off the bed and her head thrashing from side to side. “Fuck,” I bite out, “your pussy is so fucking tight. You’re trying to milk me already.”

I pull out of her slowly, wanting her to feel every inch and every vein of my cock against her needy walls.

“No,” she keens the sound desperate.

There’s a challenge in my voice, “Do you think I would pull out and leave you wanting?” I slam home and growl, “Never.”

She gasps and clings to me, her nails digging into my shoulders so hard that I get a hint of the smell of blood. Not that I give a fuck. She could use her claws and make ribbons of my skin for all I care.

I kiss and nip up her chest and neck before moving along her jaw as my hips start a steady rhythm. I move slower as I pull out only to slam home so hard that she moves a little bit higher on the bed every time.

When she starts to move her body with mine and squeezes her pussy around my shaft? I see fucking stars. My wolf is howling and jumping around in my mind, and I could almost swear that I hear Nyx’s wolf start singing along with mine.

We move faster together and my hips pummel into her harder and faster. I want her to fall apart in my arms.

“Eyes on me,” I snap, and her lust filled eyes open and lock with mine. “That’s right,” I praise her. “I want you to know who is fucking you and filling you with cum.

She gasps, but she doesn’t tell me no. The thought of her cum leaking out of her pussy, all swollen and pink from being used so thoroughly, has me hammering into her.

She lets out a screaming moan every time I fill her completely. My balls draw up and I feel lightheaded as my orgasm starts to barrel down on me. But I can’t come yet. Not yet.

I clench my jaw so tightly that I’m afraid that I might crack a tooth. Or grind one to dust.

“Need to feel you squeezing my cock and milking the cum from me,” I demand.

I reach between us and pinch her clit. Her eyes widen, but she keeps our gazes locked as her orgasm slams into her. The way she squeezes me is too much for me to handle. I roar out her name before collapsing on top of her.

I know I’m heavy, but I don’t think I can move. Not yet at least.

“Give me a moment,” I breathe against her neck where I’ve buried my face, “and I’ll be taking you again. This time I’ll make love to you, my little warrior.”

Nyx sighs and squeezes me tightly like she’s afraid that I’ll disappear. Yeah, not going to happen.

Only the Goddess calling me home could get me to leave Nyx. Even then, I would probably ignore the call if it means getting more time with her.

“Together, I murmur, “we’ll handle whatever comes our way together.”

“Together,” she whispers, that one word heavy with sleep.

I roll us over together and even though my cock is partially soft, I’m still buried inside of her. Can things get any better? My female is draped over me, right where she belongs. My pack is happy and getting healthier. I have a special pup in my life who feels like mine and is thriving.

I want to howl my joy, but I don’t. I just hold my woman tighter and smile knowing that the Moon Goddess has blessed me with more than I imagined I could have.