Dirty Secrets (The Heights #1)

Chapter 12

CHAPTER TWELVE

RAVEN

W aking up with a headache wasn’t a surprise. All I’d done yesterday was cry, and my eyes hurt from all the damn tears.

Thankfully, I was alone in bed and didn’t have to deal with Reid just yet.

I sat up and scrubbed a hand over my face, letting out a sigh. Last night had been a mess, and I had no idea what it meant for me and Logan. There was no way he’d let it slide and not cause a scene.

Reid might have started it, but I’d allowed him to touch me, the distraction being a welcome one at the time until reality had slapped me in the face.

Would Logan hate me for this? Of course he would, I’d let Reid kiss me and get me off. I’d told him I wouldn’t be with anyone else, and it felt like I’d cheated on him with his best friend.

I scowled and got out of bed, locking myself in the bathroom to shower, then I got ready for the day and shoved one of Logan’s hoodies on as I walked out to the kitchen.

Reid eyed me cautiously, placing a coffee on the table. “Here.”

“Thanks,” I muttered, taking it outside for a cigarette and sitting with my back against the wall as I smoked. It didn’t take long for Reid to join me, sitting on the steps close by with a sigh.

“I pushed you last night. You were emotional and vulnerable. I took advantage of that, I’m sorry.”

“I didn’t exactly tell you no.”

“You did.” He swallowed, looking torn. “I shouldn’t have pushed after you told me not to. I have no right to touch you, no one does. The kiss was one thing, but I crossed an even bigger line by touching you like I did. I guess I convinced myself it was fine since you’d been curious about sex stuff lately. I should’ve asked first. Please tell me if I hurt or scared you.”

“You didn’t, just don’t do it again,” I mumbled, sipping my coffee and avoiding his gaze.

Guilt hit me as my pussy clenched at the thought of his hands on me, the coffee in my stomach turning sour as Logan’s car pulled into the driveway. My heart hammered as both guys climbed from the car and Logan’s eyes met mine, his smile falling.

He knew something was wrong just by the look on my face.

His steps quickened as he reached us, not taking his eyes off me as I stared at the grass behind him. “What’s wrong?”

My eyes closed as Reid answered, not giving me a moment to figure out how to answer him.

“She’s upset with me. I took things too far last night and kissed her.”

Logan turned to look at him, his voice low. “You kissed her?”

“I thought she was into it and got her off too, then she freaked the fuck out on me. I thought I hurt her but she said I didn’t,” Reid answered, and I stood, hating how Logan’s eyes burned into me.

I’d planned on talking to Logan about it on my own later, I didn’t realize Reid was just going to blurt it out.

“Rae, I said I was sorry,” Reid said quietly as I stalked inside, hearing the guys arguing for a second before someone grabbed my bicep in the hallway to stop me from retreating.

“Come here,” Logan grunted, tugging me into my bedroom to lock the door, taking my face in his hands. “What happened?”

“I’m sorry,” I whispered, trying to look away but he wouldn’t let me. “I told him not to, but then he kissed me and I didn’t fight it. I?—”

“I want to be pissed about it, but I can’t,” he cut in, making me frown.

“Why not? I cheated on you, sort of. We made a promise not to see other people.”

“Look, Reid feels like an asshole. He said you were both upset and it just happened. Emotions get messy this time of year for all of us, but you two always get the worst of it. If it was anyone else I’d be killing them right now, but it’s Reid. Promise he didn’t hurt you?” I shook my head as he let my face go, his lips dropping to mine for a quick kiss. “Okay.”

“Okay?”

He nodded, pulling me closer for a hug. “It’s fine. As long as you wanted it.”

“I can’t want it, Logan. Not right now when we’re exploring things together,” I forced out, burying my face in his shirt.

“If you and Reid needed it to get through the night, I’m not mad. The fact that you’re obviously upset about it is what’s pissing me off. How pushy was he?” he asked, lightly threading his fingers through my hair to tug my head back. “Or are you just upset because you think I’m going to get angry with you?”

“I can’t lose you. It was a mistake.”

“I’m not going anywhere. You’re my best friend, remember? Tell me what he did.” His mouth tickled my neck and I sucked in a breath, his fingers slipping up the front of my hoodie so he could put his hands on my waist. “Did he use his hands on you? His mouth? How hard did you come for him?”

His cock hardened against my stomach, and I realized he was into it.

“He was kissing me. It was soft at first, but then it got harder until he was braced above me,” I started, my face heating. It felt wrong to talk to him about it.

“And then?” He nipped my skin, and I almost choked on my damn tongue.

“He slipped a hand into my panties to rub my clit.”

“Did he stretch your pussy with his fingers? How many did he use on you?”

I was going to come if this kept up.

Why did I like it so much? He wasn’t even touching me but my body was tingling.

“Just one. He made me come pretty fast, but then the guilt?—”

“No guilt,” he ordered, trailing kisses up my throat and across my jaw. “I’m glad he made you feel good. I wish I could’ve seen it. I love the sounds you make when you come.” His hand slid down the front of my pants, and I melted into him as he ran his fingers through the slickness between my legs. “You like dirty talk. I need to remember that. Or is it the idea of me watching Reid get you off that you like?”

“Both,” I admitted breathlessly as he moved the tip of his finger slowly around my clit, teasing me without applying too much pressure. My legs parted more for him as he slipped a finger inside me, stroking my G-spot just right and making my legs shake slightly.

“I wish I could bend you over right now and make you scream the house down so they know what we’re doing in here,” he chuckled, keeping a torturous pace with his hand. “Reid might have had you in his bed last night with his hand in your panties, but you’ll always be mine, Raven. He could pump you full of his cum, but it wouldn’t change anything.”

A moan left me from his possessiveness and he spun me around, my back to his front as he clamped his free hand over my mouth while his other hand continued to torment me.

I squirmed as the orgasm started building, panic filling me as someone knocked on the door.

“Rae? Are you okay?” Zavier called out, trying the handle, but it was locked.

“She’s fine. Give us a minute,” Logan replied, not stopping his fingers. I was dangerously close to coming, my thighs tensing as I fought it off, Logan’s voice a whisper in my ear. “Don’t make a sound or he’ll know.”

I tried closing my legs, but he blocked it with his own, my body burning for a release as Zavier sighed. “Don’t let Reid get to you. Come out and slap him, you’ll feel better.”

My body stopped fighting and I came with a jerk as Logan shushed me, lazily pumping his finger in and out of me as he continued to stroke my clit.

He finally took mercy on me and stopped, pulling his hand out and lifting it to his mouth to suck his fingers clean.

“Raven, talk to me or I’m breaking the door down,” Zavier said dryly, and I quickly fixed my pants and hoped I didn’t look like I’d just gotten off before I opened the door.

“I’m fine.” My voice was too loud and fast, making him frown.

“You sure?”

“Positive. I got upset over nothing,” I replied just as Reid appeared, a scowl on his face.

“You had every right to be upset. Don’t sweep it under the rug for me. Call me a bastard and slap me like Zav said.”

“No. You made me feel good, I just got embarrassed about it.”

“That wasn’t embarrassment, you were freaked the fuck out,” he argued, and Logan sighed as he stepped around me.

“She was just emotional yesterday, and she freaked because she liked it.”

“Logan!” I bit out, not wanting him to make it worse, but he just grinned at me.

“Go on, kiss and make up so we can get on with our day.”

I flipped him off, turning to Reid. “We’re fine. Promise. It honestly did feel good and I was into it.”

Relief filled his face, and Zavier tucked me under his arm. “So, you want to go to the Pit this afternoon? One of Devon’s buddies wants to fight me.”

“What for this time?” I grumbled, knowing Zavier would slaughter them. He was a sweet guy, but he’d been raised by a monster, so it was no surprise that the guy could tear people apart when needed.

It was kind of hot.

“They obviously felt like it was time to embarrass themselves again.”

“I don’t know why they bother,” I huffed, but he just winked.

“I’ll humble them quickly so we can enjoy the rest of the evening at the track or something.”

“Good idea,” Logan piped up. “Then I can race Riley.”

“Can I ride with you?” I asked quickly, knowing Reid was eyeing me in question, but he wouldn’t say anything about it. He’d assume I’d just want some space.

Logan tossed me his keys, smirking at me. “Okay, but only because I like being a passenger prince.”

I laughed, pocketing the keys. “Get in the car then, Prince Charming. I want to watch Lopez beat this fucker’s ass.”

“I’m surprised you showed,” Devon scoffed as we slipped through the hole in the fence at the Pit, his eyes on Zavier.

“When have I ever backed out of a fight?” Zavier asked dryly, standing in Devon’s way as I climbed through next. Devon smirked as I stepped into view, raking his gaze over me.

“You want to fight, Raven? I’ll wrestle with you.”

“Pass. I’d hate to knock you out in front of all your friends,” I deadpanned, walking past and seeing him reach out to grab my arm at the last minute. I turned, snapping my hand out to smack him in the throat and causing him to choke as he fought to get air into his lungs.

The guys cracked up and shoved past him, Zavier dropping an arm around my shoulders as he steered me towards the empty pool.

“Good idea, take your mood out on people here so we don’t get beaten up at home.”

“I’ll get in the pit with you,” I teased, jabbing him in the ribs playfully and making him chuckle.

“You’d make me look bad.”

“Only because you’d let me win,” I huffed, taking his hoodie and shirt from him as he tugged them over his head. “Kick his ass, Zav.”

My eyes flicked over his chest as if I’d never seen it before, and he chuckled as he leaned down to speak in my ear. “Don’t look at me like that, or people will get the wrong idea.”

Logan frowned as he appeared beside us, catching me looking. “Yeah, I’m getting you a vibrator if a chest is doing it for you.”

“Shut the fuck up,” I grumbled, darting my eyes away as I clutched Zavier’s things to my chest. Two of the Heights’ whores wandered over to flirt, and as usual, Zavier ate it up.

He was hot, I couldn’t blame them.

One tried flirting with Logan and he ignored them, earning a suspicious look from Reid. Logan couldn’t help himself around girls, so him completely ignoring them was going to raise red flags.

“Go pretend you want to fuck them,” I hissed, earning a flat look in return.

“Why the fuck would I do that?”

“Because Reid’s watching you like you’ve grown two heads. Just call them pretty or something.”

“You know how often Reid and I share girls. He’s already suspicious, I promise,” he grunted, glancing at the girls with a sigh. “I don’t want them touching me.”

My stomach twisted as I tried to think of a way to make it believable. “Maybe just let one blow you. Hall pass since Reid?—”

“Don’t fucking finish that,” he gritted out, making the situation worse as he grabbed my wrist and dragged me away to talk, both Zavier and Reid watching us. Once out of ear shot, Logan jabbed a finger against my chest. “This isn’t a tit for tat kind of thing. I didn’t say I was okay with Reid just so you’d be okay with some other bitch putting her hands on me.”

“Keep your voice down.”

“No. I’ll go out there right now and tell them we’re fucking if it makes that bullshit in your head stop. You think I want her mouth on me?”

“Logan!” I bit out, but he shook his head.

“I know you haven’t dated before, but that’s not how this is going to work. I know you’re hot and bothered for Reid and Zav, but I kind of expected that. You’re new at this fun stuff whereas I'm not. You want to experiment with them? I can deal with that. I know you don’t want to hear this, but I’ve fucked every pussy in town, so I know yours is the only one I want.”

“That’s weirdly romantic. Wait, did you just say we’re dating?”

“I want you, Raven,” he said in a calmer voice, intending on reaching out to touch my face but remembered that we were in public and dropped his hand. “I don’t want to flirt with girls to hide this shit. I fucking hated keeping it a secret in the first place.”

“What’s a secret?” Zavier said as he approached, and I blew out a breath, thinking fast.

“He knows about me losing my virginity and hates keeping it from Reid,” I answered smoothly, and Logan gave me an amused glance at how quick I’d come up with it.

“Oh. You’re cool with that?” Zavier asked Logan slowly, crossing his arms over his bare chest.

“Not really, but I knew this would happen. At least the guy seems to be a good one,” Logan answered, catching me perving on Zavier again. “People are going to talk if you don’t stop drooling over Zavier.”

Zavier just chuckled, stepping closer to me until his chest bumped into me. “Go on, poke my abs or something so you can come and move on. I won’t tell your little boyfriend.”

Logan gave him a dirty look, and I took a step back, flipping him off. “Your abs aren’t good enough to make me come, Zav.”

“Maybe not, but I bet you’d get pretty damn close,” he grinned, swatting my ass and making me scowl as he walked off to get ready for his fight, and Logan grumbled.

“And you guys think I’m the ass guy. He loves yours.”

“You are the ass guy,” I laughed, and he raised an eyebrow.

“Hey, I’ve left yours alone, haven’t I?”

“For how long though?” I threw back, his eyes darkening.

“Is that an invitation? I’ve been trying to ease you into things slowly, but if you give me the green light with your ass, I’m taking it.”

“I’m kind of curious but?—”

“But you’re not there yet. It’s fine,” he smiled as he took Zavier’s things in one hand, bending down to toss me over his shoulder and swatting my ass in the process. “Let’s go watch our boy beat up some idiots before I get horny and fuck you in front of the guys.”

I laughed, not fighting it and letting him carry me back to the others, finding Devon glaring at us from beside Reid. Logan put me on my feet and Devon tried to stand over me, but Reid stepped in front of him to stop him from getting closer.

“Unless you want a fight like your buddy, I wouldn’t,” Reid warned, and Devon snorted.

“Move. Your girl can fight her own battles.”

“I know, but I’d hate for you to get beat up by a girl,” he chuckled, motioning to the pool. “Go get ready to pick your buddy up off the ground. Zav won’t be long with him.”

Devon snarled and stomped off, and we moved closer to the edge of the pool. Zavier and the other guy were already in it, warming up their muscles and making me drool over Zavier all over again.

Logan gave me a knowing look as he handed Zavier’s things back to me, but he didn’t say anything, standing on one side of me while Reid stood on the other. I held Zavier’s things even tighter as someone called the start on the fight, bracing myself for what I knew was coming.

I had to remind myself that Zavier had grown up surrounded by violence and bloodshed, so he could handle himself just fine in a fight.

“Get him, Lopez!” Logan shouted, Reid and I joining in as Zavier threw the first punch. They went hit for hit for a few, but Zavier was only playing with him. If he wanted, he could knock him out with one punch, but where was the fun in that?

“Hey! Winner gets Raven’s virginity!” Devon called out, making people laugh. The laughter died down when Zavier switched from playing to serious, his opponent hitting the ground hard.

“You want to fight me, Masterson?” Zavier called out, flexing his knuckles. “Or are you going to keep trying to fight a girl? Leave her the fuck alone.”

Snickers went around the group of people, and Devon’s jaw clenched as he tugged his shirt over his head, not wanting to turn down the challenge and risk looking like a bitch.

“Winner gets Raven?”

“She’s not mine to barter with,” Zavier answered in a bored tone. “Not that you’d win anyway.”

“Scared? C’mon, if you’re so sure you’ll win, what’s the harm?” Devon asked as he dropped down into the empty pool.

“Deal,” I called out, ignoring Logan who hissed at me to shut up. “If you can beat Zavier, you get to fuck me.”

“Your bitch has bigger balls than you, Lopez,” Devon grinned, winking at me. “Don’t worry, I’ve got lube in the car. I’ll be gentle, babe.”

“I’m not worried,” I scoffed, looking at Zavier. “Make him look dumb, then we can go.”

From the look he was giving me, I was getting lectured later, but he nodded and focused on Devon.

Reid slid an arm around my middle to tug me against his side, speaking in my ear. “I swear to God, Rae. I could spank you right here in front of everyone.”

“You keep threatening to spank me but never do,” I whisper-yelled, regretting it when he let out a low chuckle.

“I’ll rectify that later. Trust me.”

I swatted at him and stepped back just in time to watch the fight start, and Devon didn’t even get a hit in before he was knocked the fuck out, Zavier’s patience gone. He climbed out, moving towards us and giving me a flirty grin. “Go on then, Rae. I win, right? Get naked.”

I pretended that I was going to pull my hoodie off, but Reid scowled, snatching Zavier’s things from my hold and shoving them at him. “Asshole. Go use your adrenaline rush on someone else.”

I rolled my eyes, enjoying the view until Zavier pulled his shirt back on, and Logan hooked an arm around my shoulders to tug me away. “We’ll meet you guys at the track. I’m going to go and feed Raven, she looks hungry.”

“Get her eyes checked too. Hers don’t seem to be working properly,” Reid deadpanned, Zavier laughing as we walked off towards the hole in the fence.

Zavier

Raven checking me out was making me want to do something stupid, like put my tongue down her throat. Reid was pissy about it, but he was more pissed right now about Raven agreeing to Devon’s bet.

I was glad she had faith in me, but all fights could go bad. What if he’d somehow gotten one over me?

I would’ve gotten to my feet and shot him. No regrets.

Raven was a damn good fighter too, and even she’d been blindsided when she’d had a knife pulled on her in the middle of her last big fight.

She missed it, I knew that, but part of me was grateful she’d stopped. Her injury wasn’t life threatening, but it was a nasty reminder how close we’d gotten to possibly losing her.

Reid and I hung out with Riley and Luna at the track for a while until Beckett arrived with Maddox and Jett, and after an hour, Logan and Raven still weren’t anywhere to be seen.

I was starting to wonder if he’d been helping her sneak around to see her mystery man, but I doubted he’d be able to stop himself from punching the guy.

“Hey,” Beckett grinned, leaning against the Challenger and crossing her arms. “What’s new?”

“Not much,” I said slowly, narrowing my eyes. “What pot are you stirring right now? You look like you’re about to cause trouble.”

“Me? Never. So, I was texting your girl earlier. She told me you know about her newfound sex obsession. How are you handling it? I told you to make a move before someone else did.”

“Would you shut up? Reid doesn’t know and we’re trying to keep it that way,” I warned.

“And Logan?”

“He apparently knows too.”

“Where are they?”

“Logan said something about feeding her, I don’t know,” I shrugged, her eyes dropping to my hands and noticing the split knuckles. “We had a thing earlier before coming here.”

“Someone giving you shit?”

“Nothing we can’t handle. It’s just Heights fun,” I grinned, flexing my fingers.

“Bet you swooned over that photo I sent you the other day. She’s good with kids,” she teased, and she wasn’t wrong. I had the urge to track her down and knock her up myself.

Which was stupid, since we couldn’t afford the people we already had under the roof, so making more was a bad idea.

Raven had always wanted kids of her own one day, but she was smart about it. Being another statistic in the Heights wasn’t on her bingo card this year.

“She likes kids. She’d be a good mom,” I nodded, and she raised an eyebrow.

“Alongside Daddy Zavier?”

“Don’t say shit like that. Reid will beat us both up,” I grumbled, making her laugh.

“Well, if she ever wants to borrow some, we have plenty. Poppy loved her help the other day and said she’s welcome any time. I will warn you though, Noah wants to bang her.”

“He’s not her type, I’m not concerned about that little pipsqueak,” I scoffed as Logan’s car finally appeared at the gate, driving towards us. Raven was driving, and she parked beside us before climbing out.

“You guys took your time,” I observed, my eyes running over her swollen lips and flushed cheeks.

Yeah, she’d been off with that guy for sure. Since she didn’t look mad, it was safe to assume that Logan had somehow not killed him.

“Sorry,” she shrugged, leaning against me with a smile. “Thanks for protecting my innocence earlier.”

“That’s long gone,” I muttered, leaning closer. “Put your pussy on the line like that again, and I’ll be collecting my winnings next time. Just so you know.”

She mumbled something about talking to Reid and darted off, and Beckett smirked. “Yeah, her little boyfriend won’t last long. Amp up the flirting, Lopez. Now she’s getting some experience under her belt, she’s more likely to take you for a spin.”

Logan laughed, shaking his head. “Rae doesn’t want that. She’s getting serious with him.”

“First loves never last. He served his purpose and popped her cherry, so now she can fuck around to her heart’s content,” Beckett smirked, and Logan frowned.

“You think she’ll want to sleep around?”

“Definitely. She watched you assholes have your fun for the past twenty-one years, so now she’ll want to have fun too.”

“He’s apparently really good in bed.”

“So? I bet Lopez is too.”

I eyed them, noticing Logan getting tense. I was a little pissed that he was okay with this other guy fucking her, but I was apparently a problem still.

“You seem so sure about this guy. You know who he is, right? It’s obvious you’re helping her sneak around to see him. She’s got that freshly fucked look all over her face right now,” I said flatly, his eyes widening for a second before he schooled his features.

He totally fucking knew who this prick was.

“It’s not our business. She’s safe, that’s all that matters.”

“Well, I think he’s trying to fuck her raw, so if you know him, probably threaten him a little,” I replied, making him wince.

“Yeah, we’ve had words.”

Reid wandered over with Raven and ended the conversation, jerking his chin at Logan. “Are you racing Riley? She’s ready to smoke you.”

“Ride with me?” Logan grinned at him before motioning to me. “You keep an eye on Rae.”

She rolled her eyes but didn’t tell him off for babying her, and Beckett chuckled as she gave me a nudge, muttering under her breath so no one else could hear her.

“Now’s a good time to sweet talk her.”

That was a bad idea and she knew it.

Everyone split up, and Logan and Reid climbed into Logan’s car to head down to the starting line, leaving me alone with Raven.

“You’re lucky Reid’s distracted,” I stated, and she looked up at me.

“Why?”

“Because you look like you just got fucked,” I teased, reaching out to untangle some of her hair. “Did you really rope Logan into dropping you off for a booty call?”

Her face heated, her voice quiet. “I’m like a sex-crazed monster right now. It’s almost embarrassing.”

“C’mon, let’s go find a beer. We’ll make the others drive home,” I suggested, making her gag.

“Pass. I’m still traumatized from last time.”

“Well, walk with me while I find one. I feel like I don’t get to spend time with you much lately, so I just want to hang out.”

Her face softened and she hooked her arm through mine. “Since you defended my pussy’s honor today, sure. You want to crash with me tonight? I want to ask some sex questions.”

I wasn’t going to last if she kept talking sex with me, but like a good friend, I nodded.

I was so fucked.